what should i do now?
ah
that all what i can said
it look like i failed after all
looking at fimiliar room,Alise just cant feel anything warm at all,
well maybe i should has a walk?
then i heard
"my lady!?!,you are awake!" shouted mania as she run toward me as she was crying
"my lady!!,you should not do that!!,a big no my lady!!" mania said as she holding my hand
"emm,ma.." urgh my voice is gone,maybe i should other way to suicide after all i dont want to lose my voice in hell or heaven
"my lady,yiu dont need to speak,you must be tired righy,let me ask for meal, wait here my lady, said mania as she run away.... well it just mania still energetic like always
but now what should i do?
kill my self with knife?
no no no that will be hurt
jump from the window?
maybe i will not died and only had broken leg
hemmm i dont know what to do right now
hemmm~
yes that it i can just drink poison
yeah how smart i am right?
but when i thinking about how to suicide that man enter my room
and i quickly hide my head and feet
i dont want his sympaty
and i dont want his love anymore
"Alise!!,why did you try to suicide!!!" the man shouted
ahh,he just came in and that trow his anger to me?,hahaha i feel there is water in my eye but i hold it,but then why did he dont ask about my condition?,maybe he truly dont love me as his daugther?
"did you know you almost destroy Cloas Family reputation!!!"
so he just care about the Cloas reputation
hahhaha
my heart feel hurt but why?,i should has not affection toward the man right?, after all what he done before why would i still think he is my father?
"now you will be punished!!!,no going out from your room for one years!!" shouted him as he walk away
well what the diffrent from going out from the room and stay inside the room?
i never going outside.... maybe there are few as that man bought me to the ball.
but that its
wait if i stay in the room alone,maybe i can had my journey to underworld became easier? hahahaha that great,oh man for once you be a good person
"my lady!!!,here the meal!!!!," shouted mania... well she still far away from the room but i still can hear he voice
as she enter the room i just shock my head
Aden pov
"alfred!!!,why did alise try to suicide you answer me right now!!!!" i shouted to my butler, fuck my daugther is trying to kill her self... and here i like stupid person that dont know anything
"lord,i had said before,if you want to know ask lady alise as she dont want me to tell you" saif alfred... heraing that i even became annoyed with alfred but i cant do anything to him as he loyal to Cloas family
but then how should i ask alise why did her tey to suicide?
Alise pov
there are few week after my punishment but still i cant found any poison in my room ,not even rat poison...maybe i should just jump from the window from the start...or thing will not be trablemsome like now
but some time that man enter my room but everytime he enter he always shouted at me
something like
"you has made Cloas family laughing stock for all other noble!!!"
"our great reputation has cumble all because of you!!!"
"now no one want to had any bussiness with Cloas family!!"
i had grow tired hearing all those shout,
but still where is mania?
...
third view pov
"hey,it look like our lady cant hold it anynore" said guard A
"yeah,she almost suicide you know" said guard B
"i want to help ,but the lord is to scary" sai guard C
"maybe we can just kipnap lady alise and sent her some where at the country side?".said guard A
"hey!!,how can you want to sent our lovely lady to country side!!!" said Maid A
"yeah,we just need to let lady alise married earlier after that she will be free" said maid B
"but who will marry our lady with the duke himself stop all thsoe mariage invatetion?" said guard B
after that all of them sigh as them cant even help alise
mania that was listening suddenly had an idea...maybe i should write letter with lady alise writing to ask someone form higher status to marry hern but who is higher than the grand duke....
ah the second prince!!,the crown prince already married few year before so tge one that left is second prince....now i need to be fast
thought mania as she run toward alise room
but now alise already on her second try to suicide...
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{i just write this novel of i was extremely bored...so anyone that read i hope dont bored as well}