1 prologue
have you ever wondered why human life is so incomplete, why it is so boring and so repetitive, if you have thought or just continued with your monotonous and defective life or tried to change only to realize that as long as you live society and follow the rules that you will not feel complete.
otherwise, you will simply live as everyone else lives your life, working, studying, reading books, playing games or just sleeping, whether as you live your life in the end you will think 'that was so boring', no matter what you did in life, from a business owner to a beggar, because as long as you live in society and follow its rules your life will be boring and repetitive
Now you must be asking yourself 'why is he saying this' 'why does he think about it' 'what is this smoking' and the answer is simple: i died, yes, i just said i did. what you thought i was, a philosopher contemplating your existence or a god who reincarnated into a simple and boring human, i am not just a simple and boring soul
Well, i regret to inform you that i am just a dead man for covid-19 who was lucky enough to find himself after death in limbo or in what this place is and that he had time to form his own aversion to life and society
Well, you might want to know more than that, well, i was just a simple student who lived a normal life, but who didn't like anything in life, even though he had a great family, friends and a girlfriend. i always tried to help everyone so they could grant me good karma, having fun and constantly studying for a great future and a good past only to finally die at 19 and feel so empty and now i am here in the middle of nowhere.
"well, now it must be a tenth time that i present myself to what god knows what is watching me" think a little upset and nervous with this sensation that i have been feeling since i got here, that now that i think that maybe god really knows who is me watching because it could be him
"I knew I should have taken advantage of that day to have sex with Laila even though she doesn't want it at the time, but I don't have to be an idiot like my father and the rest of the world and respect and follow the rules of society"
You cannot kill, steal, harass or mock, what is the grace of living in this world as more fun things are forbidden but I bet that the most powerful and influential people on earth do this or even worse totally contrary to what they preach, hypocritical wretches
Honestly, I don't understand how society hates people so much they don't follow the pattern and break the rules of where they are, treating them like criminals when we destroy and extinguish different species of plants and animals around the world, whether in the sea or in land, from elephants to insects and some still laugh at it, do not realize that animals are also lives and that plant species that are not even mentioned as so importante
"No, of course they understand, they just pretend they don't understand, they only do it because they are stronger and I just didn't do what I wanted because I'm weak compared to humanity as a whole" who I'm trying to deceive, no I am not even the strongest in my house to be considered strong because in my family the only person I could kill without being immobilized would be my older brother and that if he was sick
"I just wanted to be strong" I said in a tired and sad voice
"I can help with that"
