JUST ME

It start when im on elementary , im always the top student in our classroom since grade 1 to garde 5 im the TOP 1 , until when im at 6th grade i became TOP 2 and thinking over that its not bad atleast i still manage to be the second top at our class ☺️ ,,but my relatives and my parents dont agreed with that so they argue with my teachers until they shouted at me " SO STUPID !!!" , "USELESS" , " IM A BITCH" , AND SO ON.. they laugh at me 😕 im so humiliated and ashamed of myselff despite of everything i did they never understand meee :/ at that time i have no someone to hold , idont even know what should i doo , and thinking to just give up ,,but then i cried and cried everynight 😑 cant even talk and think , no one was there with me ...Until how many days passed , the things happened everyone forgotten ...and my beggining begins with that i thought thats the last time i felt those feelings until , i try to become better ,so i participated "ssc" which is the geniuses section in the juan g macaraeg national highschool 😄 so i pay 1k for my reviewer and often come to the school of north to learn better 🥲,, and so i did i study and understand those lessons they taught , until tomorrow is the exam day ,,, at night i revieww and dont have time for sleep but then i got family problem without knowing i slept with my reviewer and i didnt review well ,, so i got really nervous that time😕 all i need to hear is them saying "Goodluck" beacuse its normal to let there daughter inspire and do better ,,i wait , wait and wait until i got to the juan g no one say those words ,,, when they already pass the papers , first expression to those papers " I DONT KNOW THIS" bcause i didnt review well i just cried until i slept but then i follow what my heart tells untill its over , im so exhausted