Journal

March 2016, our Junior High School moving forward, this is time when all our connection ended. It seems that the relationship we build is all for nothing. You treat me like a stranger and not a classmate or Mtap partner you be with in hardships. It's also the time our first and last clear picture was taken and also the first time I write who you really are to me but I don't know if you get it.

May 2016, this is the second time I confess to you but secretly. I ask your number to your sister and confess to you by simply thanking you because your my inspiration in writing a story but it seems you are not interested and casually ignoring the message. I understand the reason why you ignored it because I know that you don't talk to strangers.

October 2017, my first chat message to you. I want to be your friend or should I say to be close to you in order for me to forget my feelings towards you. I casually ask your subjects in order to start a conversation but it looks like you were pushing me away. I can sense it the way you reply to me.

And last March 2018, the last time I ever saw you again. You are casually standing from from the other side. I did not know what to say I still have my little feelings towards you so I hide. I know you can hear me what I was saying and I know that you didn't like me that much. Why? My best friend told me. She said when I was with her you did not care to talk to her but after I left you went close to her and talk to her casually. You intentionally want to avoid me. Stupid me, you avoid me not because you didn't like me but because you hate me. You hate me because I like you.

December 2018, this is the last time. I am so tired of being hated by you. So this time I will greet you Happy Birthday. This Happy Birthday greeting will symbolize I am moving on with my feelings to you. I hope you are happy now.

"I hope."