I Hate The Gods! But Why Are You Guys Love Me?!

Seven Lights of Heaven is one of the greatest books I have ever read. It is a self-indulgent story about an overpowered man who can kill gods and demons alike. I love this kind of fantasy because it lets me escape reality, which is very depressing. I love the story but never want to be in that book world. So! Why in the hell do I get inside the story?! Not only that! Why am I a side character that will die before the third arc?! Also! What do you mean by loved by Gods?! The same Gods who like to play with human life?! Shit!