i become the main antagonist in BL novel that i wrote?!

waking up to a unfamiliar place beverly finds herself she is inside the novel that she wrote as main antagonist in a bl novel. but unfortunately the beverly rioans has a destruction end. what kind of survival is she able to make? being crazy? acting cute? or follow path of the main antagonist. her roller coaster ride makes her eager to survive. " i will not die."