2 For my brother

"Is it true!!!??" someone burst into my room while shouting.

I almost choked my soup, but I quickly composed myself.

He is a beautiful man with a sharp gaze. That silver hair and violet eyes, which share the same characteristic as mine.

My brother, the eldest son of Duke Caine von Aspera and the successor of the House of Aspera, is said to be cold, calculating and intimidating. The society looked up to him, but also intimidated by his aura and charisma. This is especially true for the monarch, as my brother, Caspian, could even one day overthrow the current crown prince due to his influence.

But one thing the society rarely see is…

"My…my dear cute little sister!!" Caspian hugged me so tight that I gasped for air.

Emmy giggled and quickly excuse herself. She is used to seeing the cold young master switching his personality as soon as his little sister is in sight.

Yes, this is the true Caspian, someone with a sister complex.

I've lived long enough to know the House of Aspera is the most tyrannical ducal household. It could also be said that they're the emperor's dog, conquering lands and gaining wealth for the empire while the emperor fattens his belly.

Yes, I know this for a fact, especially back when I was an empress who took control of one of the House of Aspera's vassal.

"B-Brother,"

"Oh no, I almost suffocated my dearest little sister," Caspian let go of his hug and gave me a tender smile.

"I really miss you,"

I couldn't answer him for a few seconds, but then I gave him a smile, "yes brother, I am back,".

This always happened to me. All the lives I've lived, I have this underlying guilt. I took over their precious loved one's body and continue their lives like it's nothing. It gradually causes me to have this emptiness and fatigue. I've become tired of living.

Immortality could make someone insane. But I am not. What's left for me if not moroseness?

"Carina?," Caspian called me out. He frowned in worry.

But…

The things my brother, Caspian, did for Carina is obvious enough. The moment I woke up, the duchy is well taken care of, the maids show respect and care for me which is a sign that I am beloved and the knights show endless devotion to the daughter of the house. This just shows how well my brother did his work to maintain the morale.

The current head of Aspera, my father, is always out conquering lands due to the orders of the emperor. So my brother took care of me most of the time. Caspian never abandoned me, but he never abandoned the family too.

I've been in a coma ever since I am 12, so I've missed my debut. Following that, I also missed my chance of flourishing the house among the socialites. Caspian is commendable really. I feel like I need to catch up. But I am already 17, I've been in a coma for 5 years. I can't even walk, and I am really weak.

There's no need to worry though. For me, it would be an easy task.

"It's just that I've been useless…don't worry brother, I will work hard! , " and this I really meant it.

I'll help the family, doing the bare minimum and then spend my days relaxing. I am already a very, very old woman after all!

Caspian hugged me again. "My dear little sister, you're being silly. All you need to do is stay healthy," he said, meanwhile hiding his icy glare.

He needs to do some cleaning up in the duke's household. Especially the loose-lipped servants who dare to say his little sister is useless.