I am the one for you

' I compare myself with my former self, not with others. Not only that, I tend to compare my current self with the best I have been, which is when I have been midly manic. Every one is expecting one thing or other from me but why don't they ask what I expect from my life ..... why I am not living my life just breathing ,am not a human but a humanoid void of feelings ..... for them I feel ..... I feel ..... I feel I can prove it ' with these thoughts she again started crying and suddenly rushed to her drawer and took out a sharp balde , she made few cuts . as the blood started to come out , her tears stoped . She felt alive . She felt that she is not numb like others think she is She is not perfect ...