221 221. Hurting

I was waiting for him. I don't know why but I feel nervous. How should I even react. should I be happy or sad. I was very much angry on him. I can't forget what he did and our divorce. Everything was messed up, my life was messed up but now this baby changed everything.

Someone knocked on the door and he was standing there looking disheveled. His always gel slicked hair was messy and his always cool appearance was not so cool. His all appearance looked messy but why. The Nicholas Cooper I know was perfection but the man standing in front of me was not the infamous Billionaire but my hus...Ex-husband. His face looked tired like he don't sleep these past few days but so was I.

I was doing fucked up things that he hates the most like clubbing wearing extra short dresses drinking and so much more because I want to show him that I don't give a damn fuck but after doing this all thing I can't forget about him. He was like leech always in my mind. I missed him badly.

I looked directly at his eyes and then again I remembered all the things he did that night. Every time I looked at his face I remembered that he called me a Whore. By remembering this all my anger surfaced out.

He come towards me and stand beside the bed. I don't know what comes into and said rudely before he say anything :- "what are doing here.... oh don't tell me you are going to accuse me that its not your child. But unfortunately its yours."

I said this because he already accused me for being a whore and before he accuse me again that its not his child so clarified it already.

I was feeling very furious by looking at his face. He was going to sit beside me but before he sit I said :- " No no no.....don't even think about to sit beside me."

He looked at me shockingly like I did something bad but its nothing in comparison what he did. I don't know where this bitchy side come from but I was glad that I have this. Its all because of my mood swings and fucking hormones but who fucking care. I like my this side more.

He made really sad face. I know he was feeling hurt by my attitude but again who cares and I want him to feel hurt and know that how hurt I was feeling this whole time.

He said in a low voice :-" Please Alexa don't do this."

"Why....Can you just do me a favor ...please leave I don't want to see your face right now." I said.

I was feeling really irritated. I don't know why but I just don't want to see his face. One moment I was feeling really happy even decided to forgive him and then another moment I feel very angry just by looking at him that I don't want to see his face.

He was still standing and wanting to say so much but I don't want to hear any shitty excuses from him.

I said again :- " Leave Mr. Nicholas ...don't make me more annoyed. Its harmful for my baby...just leave."

He took back steps slowly and still looking at me. When he reached the door he turned around to leave but before getting out he said over his shoulder :- " Its our baby...also my child.....I won't fucking harm my own blood." and left the room.

My eyes teared up from his declaration. I know he will never harm our child. He will kill anyone who even think about it. But I was still hurting. I hugged my flat belly.

I am sorry baby. I know you want your father with us but please give me some time. I promise I will give you your whole family, a complete family and all the love you deserve. Just please give mama some time.

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Nicholas POV

I was waiting patiently outside the room because sunny was already inside with her. She needed her more than me because I was fucking destroyed our life. I hurt her very badly because I was the fucked up jealousy bastard.

I was not saying she didn't do anything because she did. She slept with the man whom I hate with my every breath. But what I did in rage with her was wrong. I raped her. I fucking raped my wife. I took her very brutally that she started bleeding. I knew she was bleeding because she was dry. she always slickly wet for me but that night she was not because she knows I was not making love to her or fucking her but raping her. I called her whore and another degrading names.

I feel regret after doing this all. I should talk with her about the matter but because of my rage I destroyed everything we made together in our small period of marriage.

My train of thoughts stopped when I saw the door open and sunny came out of the room. I was standing in front of the door. I don't know why but I was feeling really nervous. I never feel nervous in my whole life because I know what I was doing and what should I do in tricky situations. I was the emotionless and expressionless bastard. And again she made me feel new emotion. Only she can do this not even my family. I love my family and they got used to my emotionless and expressionless personality.

I took deep breath and went inside. I know its not going to be easy. By looking at her I just want to embrace her tightly in my arms. She looked disheveled messy hair dark bags under her eyes chapped lips. She even looked more smaller. Specially her eyes, they lost their shine. Whenever she smiled her eyes also smiled with their shine like a stars. And I loved them the most.

I feel immense pain in my hurt by looking at her. My beautiful Alexa what did do to her. With a heavy heart I go her. I was going to sit beside her but she stopped me and said upsetting things. She even said that its my child not someone else before I accuse her for anything. She said other hurtful things and I listened to it all because I know she was hurt very badly. She wants me to leave because she don't want to see my face.

But when she said that I was being the reason that harmful for our child I was taken aback. It hurts to hear from her. I decided to leave because I don't want to take any chance about her health and for our precious child but before leaving I told her that I will never harm our child.

I left the mafia but it doesn't mean I was changed because I was never changed. I was still the same Nicholas Cooper who controls the whole mafia. It doesn't take time for me to pull the trigger and kill the motherfucker who wants to harm my family my Alexa and my child.

Because don't forget..... ONCE A DEVIL ALWAYS A DEVIL....

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AUTHOR NOTE

First read in the box then continue from here. I write the whole thing in the box and when I was going to save it then it says that there was a only 500 hundred words limit. Now I have to write it again.

Her pregnancy period is just started. she turned into more bitchy and meany. So there will be come her bitchy side.

I know you all like sweet and cute Alexa but I am sure you guys will also like her bitchy side. She will going to went through so many mood swings and hormones changes. Like I said Her pregnancy period just started and don't forget her faulty mouth. So enjoy readers.

There was a question I want to ask....

What was the colour of Alexa's eyes? please comment...

And last thing.... I want to tag a reader "Coffiezz"

Hi Coffiezz , I read your comment and I am sorry for the delay in the publishing chapters. I won't promise but try my best to publish the chapters on a weekly basis because I am busy so tell your friend that I am going to publish the chapters again. I hope your friend get well soon faster. And thank you for reading my story and being a very patient reader.😊😊

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