182. No Place To Call Home

I was sleeping in a deep slumber. I feel so exhausted like I run a very long marathon. My eyes were still closed. My body was shivering in cold. I didn't cover myself last night.

LAST NIGHT... Everything rewind like a movie what happened last night in my mind. my tears falling uncontrollably. My eyes were still closed. I don't want to open them. I want to sleep in unlimited darkness and never wake up.

Nothing was covering my naked body. I was laying like last night I passed out. I turned on my side. I hissed in great pain from the light move. I opened my eyes slowly. I was wishing its all turned out to be a bad dream and I will wake up soon. But I know its all real. I was laying like this for a few minutes.

I sit up slowly on the bed. I tried to stand up but failed. My legs were feel like wobble. I hold the headboard and stand up. I leaned against the wall and slowly walked to bathroom.

I stopped in front of the bathroom's full body length mirror. I take a sharp breath. I had blue and purplish teeth marks all over my body. My lips were swollen and so red. There's a small cut on my lower lip. My eyes were puffy and swollen. I take my whole appearance. I was looking like a mess.

My tears trails down my chicks. I clutched on my heart and cry brokenly. I fill the tub with warm water and sit in it.

" ahh..." I cried in pain.

My vagina was hurting so badly. I closed my eyes and leaned against the tub. Every moment replayed in my mind from last night.

Why..... why Nicholas why.... why did you do this... what did I do so wrong that you hurt me this badly.... why.....

Why every time this happened to me.... why in the end my loved ones hurt me so badly ...why god.....first my parents decided to marry me to some old man..... then Nicholas..... my love of my life..... hurt me break me so badly..... why me.... why...

I hiccupped. I stay like this for few minutes. My sore body feels rest in the warm water.

I don't want to stay here. I don't want to go near any place he stays. I don't want to see him.

I lift myself on my feet and come out of the bathroom. I walked to the closet and wear a comfortable sundress. I looked myself in the mirror. There's so many marks on my neck. I pulled out a scarf from the closet and covered my neck.

I came out the building slowly and stopped outside. There's so many people doing their daily routines. They were all knows where to go but I don't know. I don't have any place to go , a place to call a home.

I can't go to the main house after what he did to me and its his home not mine. It never becomes mine. I can't go to my parents house. I don't want to worry them. There's only one person I trust at this moment and I really need this person.