4 Internal struggle

So I listen to music on my way to work, during and on the way home. It's mostly early 2000's but they all remind me of my ex. The same one I can't seem to get out of my head I know it isn't healthy for me to keep holding on. So I've been thinking lately. Maybe I need to see a therapist or a psychiatrist. The music just keeps reminding me of my ex. Every time a song comes on memories cloud my mind and I miss him, I miss everything about him the good. The bad. Everything.

I miss dancing in the hallway with him... even though everyone thought we were weird for that. We didn't care. Sharing cheesy poems about each other. Being protective of each other. He spoil me and he knew it but he didn't care. As long as I was happy he was happy. I just loved spending time with him. Making him laugh, seeing him smile Everything just felt so natural.

I think my favorite thing was our art and how we would discuss movies and books we have read or seen. My all time favorite thing I loved more than anything was he used to read a book to me every night until I was asleep. It made me feel so safe and relaxed.