4 Sofia confession

As soon the class ended, my mind immediately reminds me that I need to meet Sofia at school field. I sighed at how foolish I am and just ready to take whatever going to happen to me. My legs are literally dragging myself to the school field. When I arrive, I immediately saw Sofia and a picnic lunchbox. I come near to her before asking her about that box "... wasn't we here to teach you magic? What's with that lunchbox?' Sofia smile and then reply to my question "this is my way of saying thank you. I saw that you really enjoy those cupcakes that are in your house party so I decide to make you some" she said smiling proudly making me felt bad to say no.

"Thank you" I say as she smiles happily. Sofia is actually really cool girl but..... I'm not sure why she really loves clinging to me. "So.... what did you want me to take a look at?" Sofia stands a little bit far from me before taking her posture. "I done it like this and the I supposed to push it with my hands but the only things that happen is breeze" ever since what happen yesterday, I immediately went to the library and try to learn as much as I can so I won't felt awkward like yesterday. I also already try practicing my magic the whole night. Lucky for me that I am quite quick catching things so I can say myself that I am not that amateur anymore.

"I see... I guess you not that good on your imagination since your posture is quite good if I have to say myself. Why don't you try imagining any picture that you wanna your wind to do" Sofia nod and close her eyes before redo her posture. As soon she held out her hand, wind suddenly hit me making my shirt suddenly lift up exposing my stomach. I look up on Sofia and saw her cheek redden at the sight of my stomach. I quickly close my shirt before coughing out of embarrassment. "It's really working" Sofia said as I look at her with smile.

"What you imagine about?" Sofia smiles "your abs" I choked out of nothing as I hear what she just said. "A-re you joking?" she shake her head and continue "I can't think of anything else other than you" she said before suddenly hug me tightly. Without me realizing, she suddenly tiptoed and kiss me on the lips. I can't even think of something else and my whole body totally froze in place. "I really like you, Josh" she said staring me on my eyes. "I fall in love with you at the first sight. As soon I saw you, my heartbeat beating so fast that even me myself can't control it"

"I know..... You were cold and heartless but... I love you! I-I can't hold myself back....and I know that I am nothing compared to you but I tr-"Rui suddenly call my name "Joshua! Your father told you to get home right now" I quickly apologies towards Sofia before walk away. Even on my way back home, I can't help it but keep thinking about Sofia confession. I understand that she like me but... it's hard for me to make decision. This isn't really me. I'm not actually Joshua Stuart and I don't wanna be making decision for him like this. What I am feelings right isn't actually me. It's still Joshua's heart.

If Joshua likes Sofia then for sure my heartbeat will be beating so fast right now but..... Nothing actually happens. "What if Joshua like guys?" I shook that thought of my mind "no way! Joshua supposed to be main character of the game that my sister plays..... But there's possibility that he doesn't attract to either gender" I groaned as my head suddenly felt aching as I think too much. "Whatever" I mumbled to myself before resting my back on the seat and close my eyes hoping that the next time I open my eyes, I will felt more energetic than now.

-Palace-

"Joshua, I wanna you to think more about marry" my father said looking straight at my eyes "if you don't wanna to think about that, I will marry you to Sofia. I hear from her parents that she crazy about you" my father said before taking steps closer "if you don't wanna get marry, then I won't force you but I wanna see your power become more powerful. Powerful enough that no one will dare to take away our kingdom. Make sure you think about those options carefully" he said and walks away once again. "I don't know why but I am kind of getting annoyed by how many people say about marriage already"

I groaned frustrated before get inside my room and locked it. "I just wanna be alone for a day" I jumped on my bed before closing my eyes. "........" I look around and saw I was in my old room. Everything... looks familiar. I get up and immediately ran to the kitchen. "Makumi, come here and taste my new recipe" I sit down on my usual seat as I stare at my mother face "Mom...... I miss you" my mother look at me with her usual smirk "what? You just don't see me for 4 hours and you already miss me? My dear little boy" she smile before coming closer and hug me tightly. I really miss you, mom.... the warmth of mother really can't compared to anyone else. "Brother? Mom? Why did you guy hugging without me and dad huh?" my sister come before hitting me jokingly and hugs me from behind before my father joins.

My tears keep falling on my cheeks. "I don't know whether this is a dream or what but..... I really miss you guys. I really hope you guys were also there. I want you guys to be my family in my next life too" I started sobbing as I can't hold back anymore. As soon I open my eyes again, everything suddenly starts to crack. One by one thing in the house disappears. I look at my family and saw they also become blurry. "Mom? Dad? Sister?!" my mother look at me in the eyes before say "I really love you my dear son. I'm sorry that I can give you everything in this world" mother suddenly turns into dust. I look at my dad as he gives me his gentle smile "Makumi, I really glad you are my one and only son. I always been proud of you"

"You were a great son..... I'm so sorry that I am not capable enough to give you everything. I'm sorry that I'm not like other people parents. I'm so sorry" he also turns into dust. My heart felt heavier as my sister held my cheek and turn my face to look at her. "Brother.... I miss you. You were a kind brother and cool one too. I always been proud of you, you know. If I have to compare to you to any anime characters, it would be... naruto. I always been fan of him and always been looking on him. Brother, I always been thinking that one day, I wanna bring you see a lots of pretty flowers. I always been dreaming to be adult along with you but I guess it's will never happen huh?"

"Brother, I wanna you to always be happy okay? No matter where you are. Love you" she also disappears from my sight. Everything start to crack from then on "Your highness!" I jumped out of my dream at the sound of my name being called. "Thank goodness you wake up. You were sweating and crying from your sleep" I look down on my hands as those words keep replaying in my head. I promise you Miku, mom and dad that I will always be happy and goes on with my life. You guys are great... role model for me. I love you guys too.... I mean it dearly