66 Chapter 64

JEONGGUK'S POV.

"H-hyung" The said person turned around and stood up with a poker face making me nervous to death. I hope he didn't hear anything but the look on his face is telling otherwise. "H-Hyung? You here?" I asked trying hard to summon a smile. "What was that Jeongguk?" "W-What?" "You exactly know what I am talking about." I gulped and averted my gaze from him and started looking at the ground. "Gguk, I am asking something." But I didn't reply. He sighed and then asked me to sit on the couch next to him which I hesitantly did but kept my eyes on the floor for the whole time. "So you like Jimin." I didn't expect him to be straightforward. I couldn't reply anything nor even node. "Gguk, I won't say anything. Just answer my question." his voice became softer. I gave a light node still looking down. "Does Jimin know?" I shook my head in denial. "Did you tell anyone else?" I again denied. He gave a heavy sigh making me more scared and nervous than I already am. "Gguk do you even understand what you got yourself into?" "B-But I love him hyung" I mumbled finally looking at him. His eyes widened. "Love? You LOVE him?" he asked shocked "More than anyone" "Jeongguk he is your..." "Brother. I know. You don't need to remind me that again." I turned to look at my hands. "Now I understand why you hate Taehyungie" "To be honest, I don't hate hyung. I never did. I just hated the fact that...he has Jimin. He can show his love freely while I have to hide mine from everyone. He is lucky hyung. He is so lucky." There was a long silence and I started contemplating my life decisions. "Gguk." He finally spoke. "Have you ever thought what will you do about your feelings?" I didn't reply. "Jimin already has someone but even if he hasn't, you guys still couldn't be together." I knew that. I knew that from start but then hearing the actual fact like this, it hurts a lot. "I love him hyung" I mumbled. Tears started brimming in the corners of my eyes. "I know but...it's not easy in fact it'scompletely impossible." he said "I-I know it's my m-mistakeI should have...have stopped myself from f-falling but...but now I cannot turn the time b-back." Tears finally started streaming down and falling over my lap. I lifted my left hand to wipe them away. "It's not your mistake. It never was. We cannot control our feelings Gguk but we can do is kill them if needed. You have to kill your feelings Gguk." I looked at him with pleading eyes. "Have you ever realized how your parents will feel after knowing this? Have you ever thought about Jimin? What will he think if he will know that his own brother is in love with him?" I wanted to cover my ears didn't want to listen any further. It's not like I never thought about these things. I did. But I never wanted to do that again. I just want to live happily thinking that one day Jimin will be mine. One day he will feel the same towards me. "This world is so cruel. Do you think you can face it? Even the life of a homoual is filled with thorns. Do you think your love can survive?" "You are still the same Jeongguk for me. My cute little friend. My friendship will never change for you because of such things. But not everyone is like me Gguk. I can't tell even about our friends. How they will react." "Gguk I am not blaming you for your feelings but I am trying to tell you about consequences of them. I know people say that one should not care about what others say but practically no one can live with so much hate in this world which you probably will get because of your love for Jimin" "You must be hating me now but I just don't want my friend being judged by everyone. I want you to live a normal and happy life." "I care for you Gguk that's why I am telling you think about Jimin, think about yourself and burry your feelings. They won't give you anything but pain." I was sobbing by then. Every word. Every word was like dagger to my poor heart. "You have to do it. For the sake of you, for the sake of Jimin you have to do it." "I am sorry Gguk" He hugged me tightly and then left leaving me alone crying. "B-But I love...h-him..."

JIMIN'S POV.

Me and Tae were watching third movie when we heard the door bell. "I will check it" Tae said and got up. "Hyung you are finally here? That's great now you can watch movie with us too." "No Taehyung I am not in the mood right now." I snapped my head to look back at the familiar voice. Yunki hyung? What is he doing here now? Why did he come so soon. "Please hyung. It's not like I ask you everyday. Just this once please." "Fine" "Thank you!" I clicked my tongue at the scene and turned back to look at the screen. "Jimin?" came hyung's voice from behind and I turned again and gave him a fake smile. "I didn't know you were coming today." "Me neither but Tae messaged me because he was missing me so much and how could I refuse MY Tae Tae?" I winked at Tae. Hyung frowned and looked at Tae for a second then back at me and smiled again. "That's good." "umm Hyung you sit here. Do you need anything?" Tae asked making me frown and Hyung shook his head in denial. Tae sat next to me while hyung sat on the armchair and we all started looking at the screen. "Hyung you want chips?" Tae asked making me internally groaned but hyung refused. "I want chips baby." I spoke. "Oh OK." He passed me the packet. "Feed me darling." I smirked and he widened his eyes slightly. He looked at hyung then back at me "O-Okay." I smiled after eating the crunchy substance and leaned my head over his shoulder. I saw hyung giving us side glances which made me smirk internally more. Tae leaned forward to grab a glass of water making me reluctantly sit straight. "Jimin, I heard from Hoseok that you are practicing singing daily for hours. How is that going?" hyung asked me looking at me fully. "It's going well hyung but...I am still not confident about my singing." I admitted honestly. "I think you are an amazing singer. I personally love your voice and I am happy that you are trying to improve more but make sure to not get yourself drained" He said and I gave him a thankful smile. "What about me?" Tae spoke suddenly making both of us to look at him. "Don't you like my voice?" he asked hyung making me frown. I looked back at hyung who looked at me at the same time then he looked at Tae before speaking "I love your voice too Taehyung. You both are amazing singers." "Really? Then...umm will you let me s-sing one of your song?" I looked at him confused. "I know hyung you are an amazing song writer and it would be my honor to sing at least one song written by you. Please hyung." I clicked my tongue not liking one bit of what is happening. I saw hyung blushing slightly while nodding. "Oh my god! Really? Thank you so much hyung!"

Can't believe it's 60 chapters already