63 Chapter 61

JIMIN'S POV.

I stayed at uni. like always after classes to sharpen up my singing skills as I am not that confident about it as much as I am with my dance and also to avoid going home with two persons I am trying to avoid. You guys must be thinking why. Well to be honest even I don't know. That time, in that party I have a weird feeling when I looked into Gguk's eyes but I can't comprehend what exactly it was and it is making me scared. I wanted to keep distance with him if possible until I decipher what exactly I felt. And Tae? I am scared. Scared of loosing him to someone else. Even though I trust him. His words when he said that he will only love me but I couldn't help but to feel jealous towards Yunki hyung. I know they are just friends and Tae is MY boyfriend but the fact that Tae never spent his time with anyone else more than me and now all his attention remains on Yunki hyung rather than me, makes me scared. I don't want to loose him. I love him so much that it will feel like dying without him. He is my first and last love and thinking of him in someone else's arm pangs my heart. I want to talk to him about it but...I don't want to be that clingy boyfriend. I don't want him to feel like I am trying to trap him with myself only. Maybe they are just friends and me getting all insecure about it and asking Tae to stop talking to hyung will suffocate him. But then what shall I do bout this feeling of jealousy and insecurity? It's my first time feeling like this considering the fact that it's Tae's first time too of giving someone else attention more than me. I don't want to feel like this but I am feeling and I can't help it. I hope whatever I am thinking is not true. Tae is still mine and always will. After practicing singing for sufficient time I left the uni. After entering the apartment I checked for Ggukie. I don't want to face him now and after checking thoroughly, I went in my room. I closed the door and opened the cupboard to grab some comfortable clothes. "Where were you till now?" I jumped slightly and turned around quickly with wide eyes and saw Gguk leaning on the door with his arms crossed over his chest and one of his eyebrow raised. "Where did you come from?" "I was already here. Maybe you didn't noticed. Now your turn hyung Where. Were. You" I gulped and turned back to look into cupboard in order to hide my nervousness. "I-I was at u-uni. To practice some notes in vocals." "Oh really? Fine I will ask straight then. Why are you trying to avoid me?" I took a deep breath to lessen my nervousness. "I am not." I felt a tight grip on my arm and being got turned around. I met with his furious eyes. "Don't lie, hyung." He growled. "I-I am not lying." "You think I am stupid that I cannot sense you are trying to avoid me and Taehyung from past days?" He shouted making me gulp. "Did I do something wrong hyung?" His voice became a lot softer this time. "Did you...not like the party? Did you not like...my surprise? Have I done something hyung? Did I say something to you hyung?" tears started to flow from his eyes making me panicked. "I-I am..sorry hyung but please don't ignore m-me. Y-you told me-me that you will never i-ignore me." "G-Gguk? It's not like that. Please stop crying Gguk" "T-then tell me why....why are you avoiding me?" I couldn't speak. How could I just tell him that I was feeling weird around him when I myself was confused with everything? "I am sorry Ggukie. Hyung will never do that. I am so sorry." I begged couldn't see him cry anymore. "Last time you said the same hyung but you still avoided me again." "I won't do it again. I promise." I tried to assure him. Suddenly I felt a pair of soft lips over mine. I got froze and my eyes widened. For some unknown reasons I didn't want to push him instead I just stood there without any movement. I felt his lips started moving slowly giving a tingling feeling to them. Then I felt his tongue my bottom lip sending a shiver down my spine. I felt a pair of arms slid around my waist and pulled me closer to him. Then he started on my upper lip and then lower lip making my eyes fluttered close. What is this feeling? What is happening to my heart? I felt him giving light bites to my lower lip and I unconsciously opened my mouth making him enter his tongue. I s my arms around his neck and pulled him even closer and our tongues started to fight for dominance which he won eventually. His tongue started to explore my cavern making me moan in pleasure. His grip around my waist tighten. Our tongues were tangling with each other producing butterflies in my stomach. One of his hand travelled down and started groping my making me moan and then I immediately pushed him away rather harshly. I was panting heavily and my eyes widened at the realization of what just happened. Holly ! I just kissed my own brother!? What the had gotten into me? "Hyung lets go to that café where Yunki hyung was working before " He spoke casually making me snap my head to look at him with a frown. What!? Didn't he realize what we did just now? How can he be so calm? Maybe he is nervous and utterly confused too just like me and trying to act that that thing never happened? I think that's the best idea we can do in this situation. I think I should forget everything too and pretend that it never happened. Yeah that would be right. "What say hyung?" I cleared my throat before speaking. "...Y-Yeah" "Cool. Ge ready and I am going to my room to get ready OK?" I nodded and he left. . . . . What the hell we did!? Oh !!! How will I behave normally in front of him from now on? And the worst part is...I LIKED THAT!! Like what the literal ? Only if I could erase everything.