15 The new feeling..

You ever now feel like the new feeling that is taking control over you? your life is moving round like a circle in a spiral and it can't get any worse.. You just feel... nothing at all! It doesn't feels awesome at all.. it's like fcking a very bad very very worst nightmare.. Many ideas shrink into your mind to do something but.. but the thing is you can't literally do anything.. and you can't even think of something completely because someone is messing up with your mind... well who knows but you don't want to think of it and of every corner and part of your mind there is SOMEONE who takes part who really exists... And you just wish that the one person who acts to take control over your mind also miss you like you miss them.. like you cry for them.. in real this time you expect the same from them.. every time but... 

THE MORE YOU EXPECT THE LEAST YOU GET

That's the reality it's all are lies... That;s the new feeling that you don't want..