12 reality (part 2)

Do you ever feel like you're being blackmailed or something? You feel like... He knows everything about you.. and the ugly fucking past.. the past that you regret to be exist? You feel like torn and rotten from every side... Everyday you feel like you are being victim of something, or he is trying to make you realize something that you really really don't want to know..? You feel like everything will be ruined and all messed up.. you can't control yourself you let yourself harm yourself... You keep going angry and full of rage on everything.. your head goes dizzy and you have a dark gloomy feeling... A very depressing touching sad momentum.. you just want to die and you wish that why am I even living in this fucking world still? And at that time... The reality sucks... You can't even let yourself be adjust in the position.. you are at that moment where you felt very unlucky and in real damn danger... You make yourself think that "I want to die" and you really want to die and nothing.

Your all secrets... Your matters... Your problems.. your feelings.. your thoughts.. are not yours at all now..they're being shared forcely.. and you don't want it to be like that... And you feel like its the beginning of your end. And you regret the reality... You regret the ugly fucking damn reality... You regret everything and you just and just want to die...

Self harm...

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