1 One day...

Do you ever feel like you're trapped under screams and... You can't even cry... when guilt and sorrow fills you, filled your every part.. you feel useless.. you feel nothing.. you feel like on that time the floor open and swallow your whole body... And you keep crying for help and thinking that |one day every one will be happy to not seeing you where you are now... One day... maybe one day you'll be there where you never want to be but they did.. one day when you'll be called by God and there will be no existence of yours...|they'll regret everything they did you once or twice but unfortunately there will be no way out for them who wanted help... Everyone gets what they want but never gets what they really deserves...

Have you ever feel that complaining to anyone also never help when you're in living hell... When your heart is filled by sorrow and darkness.. you only worry and care for every single thing in your life.. when they asked you 'how are you?' And you answer with 'fine' and then you realize that they don't really care...

You feel disgust... You... You feel cold, depressed, mournful, despairing, miserable, down cast, heart-broken, gloomy, sorrowful, glum...huh and only defeated... You feel like losing your brain Cells.. like you are going psycho and crazy by yourself... You can't even forgot your past ...ha! The disrevealed past... The ugly truth and the past that you never forget..and don't even want to share with your even dearest one's... And you keep reminding to yourself that 'trust no one'.

In the end you think "My name's blurry face and I care what you think"💭☺