3 Now a days...

Do you ever feel like you're trapped under your own created world.. and you think "some of them cared... None of them cared enough.. neither did I.." And you feel like a living HANNA BAKER... which... you created yourself like this.. it's none of their fault, maybe it's only your fault or maybe it's their fault.. but at tuts situation ... You can only blame yourself, and you are literally thinking that.. 'why me?'.

Every night ends with your tears, every day starts with your fake smile and at last you can't bare that kinda pain... And I meant this.. 'that kind of pain'.. which you can't bear... which you feel like its your own... And that's danm true that you cant leave your feelings like the special people you left behind you and your life... And now you regret... Truly you regret everything you've done before and no one can calm your pain.. that pain that is impossible to explain... That is... is very difficult to control and... You just got that feeling that to everyone... Don't ask questions, don't ask anything from me.. And leave me alone at my own I'll re- huh... recover myself from my own self... Which is now broken.. totally broken and shattered into pieces...

Some times feelings stay... even when we beg them to leave...you come off as strong, but maybe you fell asleep crying.. you act like nothing is wrong, but maybe you're just really good at lying.. who knows... Our real pain.. And honestly I think the saddest sound ever is the crack in a person's voice when they're on the verge of tears... But nowadays you feel numb... And cold.. well, its strange.. that your heart burns and burns... Then it turns to ice... Isn't it true...? Nowadays you're broken... Broken because of pain... Your own pain destroyed you into millions of peices...

"Don't let the pain destroy you" -TIM FARGO.

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