chapter 1

The sound of heavy grunts were filling my ears. Willingly laying face down, tooted up for my husband as he took his pleasure. Consummation between husband and wife should be pleasurable for both, but I've never felt that way. I rolled my head to the other side trying to focus on the clock besides our bed. I had started counting down the time when we began having sex. I only had a few more seconds to go before he came. I went to stretch one of my arms because it was beginning to cramp but he grabbed onto it. As he pulled my arm behind my back, I held back a grimace. Mistaking me for wanting to grab the sheets.

"You feel so good," he moaned while his thrusts began to speed up. I didn't reply, as there will be no point. Although if I did, he wouldn't have cared to hear. I closed my eyes, trying to concentrate on my body. Maybe if I focused enough on how my nipples brushed against the sheets with every sway to my heavy breasts, I'd be turned on. Or perhaps the feel of my husband's touch on my hips should have been good enough. But for the life of me, no matter how hard I tried, I could not get turned on. There was no fire to our love making _ just a dullness.

"F- fuck," he stuttered and his hips lost rhythm as he chased his high. He let go of my arm, choosing instead to grip my hips harshly. Thrusting into me automatically, I could hear his balls slapping against my lower lips. I cried out under his bruising grip and thrusts trying to wiggle away. Stupid mistake seeing as he gripped me harder, to which I had no choice but to take it. My ass jiggled beneath him as he continued his lovemaking. "I'm gonna" his hips stuttered and I felt him pure something inside me. The feel of his seed inside me caused my clit to twitch, but then settled to normal. He learned his body over mine, nearly squishing my body into the mattress. He thrusts quite a few more times, making sure he filled me with everything he had.

The room remained silent except for his heavy breathing and the squelching noises of my pussy taking his dick. After moving inside me a few more times to make sure I took his seed, he started kissing my back. Murmuring intangible words as I continued to breath slowly. "I'm quite ashamed of myself to say that I lead on my husband occasionally. I often fake having had an orgasm I haven't felt in what feels like years. So when it comes to the end of lovemaking, I moan as if am coming down from my own high. Although his kisses are the sweetest and make me feel warm inside, it doesn't stir my lady bits.

"Love you," he whispered against my back before he pulled out of me with a "plop" sound. He turned my body around to face him to admire me as I admire him. I watched his very dark forearm reach between us to grab his cock. He strokes it a few times before taking a few dips in my pussy full of cum. I glance at his very dark, full lips before taking my hands to stroke his buzzed hair lovingly. As he lathers his dick, I stare into his beautiful brown eyes.

"I love you, too ," I told him sincerely because, although the sex isn't great. My husband and I are very much inlove. He knows I do anything for him. There's a short bit of silence before he sits up and I have a full- eye view of his dick. Covered in both of our juices, the tip of his cock glistens in the moonlight. As he lazily stroke himself into one hand, he uses the other to grab my hair full of short, black locks. His grip isn't bruising as he uses my hair to guide my face closer to him. I took a quick glance at the clock before starting a countdown and closing my eyes. Opening my mouth, I take in his length and let my husband use me once more.