955 (Title is a Spoiler)

Even though it hurt, Long Jinjing felt herself becoming a little braver after Lu Zihao dashed any hopes for something more between them. Something broken would still be broken after breaking it into several more pieces after all. It would hurt more, yes, but at least she would have no regrets about things that could've or should've been.

She wiped her tears with her long sleeves and was able to control her emotions better although not completely. 

"I don't think that you're a monster, Nikolai," she told him in a soft, shaky voice. The conviction in her eyes when she said this, on the other hand, was very firm. "You may be a beast most of the time especially in…in…b-bed but that's because you're someone who's blessed with vigour. And…you may be r-rough and arrogant a lot of times but that doesn't mean that you're a monster."