37 Chapter 35

Shivering, I wrap the blanket tighter around me. We will have to stay overnight here. Panda has been acting strange since earlier but I don't pay attention to it because he has been weird since we arrived at the beach. I know it's because of Ciarra. Is he actually jealous that Ciarra is my friend?

"You can sleep on the bed, I'll sleep on the sofa." Pan says, walking in with a new set of clothes. I've changed clothes too because my other ones were soaked through. I am still in disbelief that Pan rescued me. Does he care for me because I am his bodyguard?

"Sure." I nod and lie down. Usually, he would want to share the bed without hesitation. This is good too though, so I can sleep comfortably.

I wonder if Ciarra has returned home or is she staying here too? I haven't seen her after I came back. There's no text message or call. 

"Pan." I whisper in the dark. I am still feeling extremely cold. My body is shivering. "I'm cold."

"You have your blanket on right Tin?" He says from across the room. 

"Y-yes. But I'm still cold." 

"Let me check." Pan switches on the lamp light and walks towards the bed. He places a hand on my forehead and I quickly grab it for warmth. 

"Your body is nice and warm." I smile, rubbing myself like a cat against his hand.

"Tin, I'm going to see if I can buy a thermometer and some medicine. Wait here for me." He says before patting my head and leaving the room.

My eyelids feel heavy but I force myself to stay awake until Pan returns. Ten minutes pass and he is still not back. Sleep overcomes me and I fall asleep.

"Tin. Tin, wake up."

Pan's voice wakes me up from my sleep. He holds the thermometer under my tongue and sighs. 

"You have a fever Tin. I've bought some medicine for you."

I smile weakly and hold his hand, "Thank you Pan."

He coughs and averts his eyes. Is he feeling shy? 

"Take these and I'll make some porridge for you."

I nod and take the tablets along with the glass of water he gives me. Laying back down on the bed, I try to warm myself up.

"You're sweating." Pan exclaims in concern and brings over a bowl of water. "I'll wipe you." 

I nod and allow him to wipe my hands and face with a damp towel. When he gets to my neck area, I freeze. How should I stop him without looking suspicious?

"I think this will do." He says as if reading my mind. He stops and removes the towel off my neck.

"Thank you." I smile and hold his hand. "Stay here Pan."

"I am staying here Tin. I'll be on the sofa."

I shake my head stubbornly, "No, I want you to stay here."

Pan hesitates, "You want me to stay on the bed?"

I nod, "Please."

"Why are you being unreasonable?" He groans as I keep my hands over his hand.

"Unreasonable?" I ask in confusion and annoyance. What's so unreasonable? He has always slept with me with no problems before.

"Let go Tin. I'll sleep on the sofa." He pulls his hand away from me.

Why does my heart feel like it is sinking to the pits of my stomach?

"F-fine." I say shakily. My eyes are sweating too.

"Tin, are you crying?" Pan asks worriedly, staring at me.

"O-of course not." I chuckle, "W-Why would I cry?"

He reaches his hand towards my face and wipes under my eyes, "What's this then? Tell me why you're crying Tin."

I frown. I don't know why my eyes are watering either. I've never cried in front of him before. I'm not one to cry often, especially never in front of others.

"I don't know." I say in embarrassment, turning my head away from him. Why do I always end up being weak in front of him?

"Fine. I'll stay here." He says gently and lifts his legs to sit beside me on the bed. He doesn't get inside the covers. 

"Do you not want to get in? It's cold." I say, lifting the blanket.

He shakes his head, "You go to sleep now Tin. I'll be fine like this."

Tiredly, I nod and it doesn't take long for me to doze off.

I wake up in a sweat. It's still night. Glancing beside me, I see Pan sleeping without anything covering him. He must be cold. Gently, I place the blanket over him. I'm not cruel enough to leave him like that.

My hand lightly brushes against his and my face heats up in the dark. That strange warmth in my chest is back.