3 Ch. 2: The heart wants what it wants.

<p>HIS SIDE OF THE STORY<br/>[CALIX'S Point of View]<br/><br/><br/>"Marie, please! Please tell me what I did wrong. I don't want this to happen.. Mariela.. Please.. Don't leave me alone.." I was holding onto Mariela's hands. I don't want her to leave me.. I can't.. I love her so much and I can't fucking lose her. "I love you, Marie.. I love you so much and you know that so why are you doing this to me?"<br/><br/>Marie removed my hand and looked at me. There was no emotion written on her face. "Marie.."<br/><br/>"I'm sorry, Calix. But everything is over between the two of us. Let's not burden ourselves with each other anymore." Marie took off the necklace I gave her and put it on my hand. "Let's forget about each other now, Calix."<br/><br/>"Marie.. Please-!"<br/><br/>"I'm sorry, Tristan."<br/><br/>When Marie turned away from me, I hugged her to stop her from leaving me. "I love you.." I hugged her so tight because I want her to realize and feel how inlove I am with her. I want her to hear my heartbeat. How it only beats for her. I want her to stay with me.<br/>"If I ever did you wrong, I'm sorry Marie. I'm sorry.. I promise that I won't do it again. Just... Just don't do this. Let's fix this, Marie. Please.." Marie broke off my hug and looked at me. The look on her face pierced my heart because it showed me how sure she was with her decision. <br/><br/>"Can you just stop, Tristan? I don't want to do this anymore!" I held her hands again and looked her in the eye hoping that my sincerity and love reach her again. I pulled her towards me and hugged her. She was trying to escape from my arms but I didn't let her.<br/><br/>"No.. You're just saying that because I did something to upset you, right? I already said sorry Marie and I won't do it again-"<br/><br/>"STOP IT ALREADY!" Marie pushed me away from her. "Tristan, I don't want to be in this relationship anymore and I don't want to be with you anymore." I was just staring at her while she was mentally killing me. "Please, just let me go." I... I only wanted to make her happy.. Where the fuck did I go wrong? Am I not enough to make her stay?<br/><br/>"Marie.." She turned her back and walked away. <br/><br/>And because I couldn't do anything, I watched her walk away from me.<br/>I watched how the person I love the most, walked out in my life.<br/><br/><br/><br/>"BRO, stop it already! You may have forgotten that we still have classes tomorrow. You can't just drink the night away. Bro, c'me on." I ignored what Mico said. I just continued drinking but I fucking hate this heart! I can't even get her out of my mind for a second. She's still all I can think about. Nothing else.<br/><br/>"You can go now if you want to leave, just let me do my thing." <br/><br/>"No way bro, I won't leave you alone, especially in that state? You look like you won't reach your house if I don't bring you home." I ordered another bucket of beer. Who cares about classes? I will drink until I drop and I don't fucking care if I die because of this. Mico tried to stop me but there's no way I'll stop. "Oh come on, bro!"<br/><br/>"I already told you, Mico. Just get out of here and leave me alone. I can handle myself." As I drank another bottle I felt something spewing out in my stomach. I ran out of the bar and vomitted on the side of the alley. Fuck this.<br/><br/>"Really, huh? You can handle yourself, huh? Stop being stubborn, Calix." Mico wiped his face in frustration, "You know what? That's it, I'm calling Kona. You're dead meat once she sees you in that state."<br/><br/>I held Mico's hand when I saw him dialling on his phone. "You can't fucking call Kona. I will seriously break your face. Just get me a cab and I'll go home." <br/><br/>"So Kona is really the only one you listen to, huh? Tch." I buried my face into my hands.<br/><br/>Kona is like my sister. She is someone that I know wouldn't leave me no matter what happens. I can't let her see me in this state, I don't want her to be worried. She can't carry the same burden I'm carrying. <br/><br/><br/><br/><br/>"FUCK, KONA.." I tightly held on the sheets as I thrusted faster inside her. "Kona.."<br/><br/>I felt her fingers dug at my back. Her fascinating moans were like music to my ears. I never looked at her other than a sister and I never noticed her turning into a grown woman. She was every man's dream, and yet she's here, satisfying the needs of a pathetic guy who can't move on from his ex-girlfriend. <br/><br/>"Calix.." I held Kona's lips when she said my name. I caressed her face while busy exploring her mouth. While I was caressing her face I felt my fingers getting wet. I opened my eyes when I realized Kona was crying.<br/><br/>It was not an unusual sight for me anymore. Me being an asshole and fucking her in replacement for Marie despite of being aware of her feelings for me. Yes, I'm an asshole. <br/><br/>I wanted to protect her as much as I could but instead, I am the one hurting her. I am the one responsible for her tears and I don't know why I can't stop myself from hurting her.<br/><br/>I buried my face on Kona's neck and left her a hickey. She suddenly pushed me and glared at me. She then held the part of her neck where I left her a love mark.<br/><br/>"WHAT THE HELL, CALLISTO!!" She screamed on top of her lungs. I looked at her intrigued.<br/><br/>"What?" <br/><br/>"You just left a mark on me! Our classmates might notice this and even my parents might see this too!" I just laughed at Kona. Her face was all red and she was glaring at me like she'll murder me any moment now. Her eyes were a bit puffy and wet but she just wiped it away and she tried to do it unnoticeably. <br/><br/>I removed her hand that was covering the hickey and looked at it, "Look how cute it is."<br/><br/>"CALLISTO, YOU MORON!" She threw a pillow to me but I dodged it. She then suddenly took another pillow and striked me repeatedly. "You are in big trouble!" <br/><br/>I just watched Kona hit me. A little while later, we were both laughing our ass out. We were laughing as if we do not care about the world, even those around us and I laughed as if I wasn't doing anything wrong to Kona.<br/><br/>It feels so nostalgic being like this with Kona. Before we came into this set up, we were always like this. Laughing our problems away. Once someone gets pissed off, just a simple ice cream can serve as a peace offering and everything will be okay. <br/>Konari was my other half, my bestfriend and she even knows me better than I am.<br/><br/>But what the hell am I doing? <br/>Why the hell am I doing this to her? <br/><br/><br/>While we were fooling around, I pulled her closer to me. It was unexpectedly close. No one dared to move and we stared at each other. I could feel Kona's heartbeat racing and I felt so excited about that.<br/>I cupped her face and looked into her eyes. <br/>Damn.. When did she become this beautiful? <br/><br/>Before, she was just a naughty girl who likes to play outside with her favorite dolls.<br/>She is the haunting child who suddenly cries when she is left alone on the playground.<br/><br/><br/>Oh God.. What have I been missing? <br/><br/><br/>I slowly kissed Kona. The gentlest kiss I could ever give her. I didn't mind the consequences of what I'll be doing next and just seized the moment. <br/><br/>I used my tongue as I slowly pushed Kona back on bed. My hands started exploring her bare body again. Fuck, I want this body for my eyes only. I want to be the only one having this kind of privilege. Only me. I don't care how fucking selfish it sounds but I want her all for myself.<br/><br/>"Calix.." I nibbled her breast and my hand played with her clit. Her body arched. "Ohh.. C-Calix.. Oh fuck!" I kissed her again and slid my veiny cock inside her. I thrusted as fast as I could and I can see her hands tightly gripping on the bedsheet.<br/><br/>While I was thrusting on top of her I looked at her but I suddenly remembered Marie. I felt my body longing for her and my mind was deceiving me because I was starting to see Marie in Kona. It felt like I was making love with Marie and it made my heart race. It made me crave for more. <br/><br/>"Marie.." I saw Kona opened her eyes. I came back to my senses when I saw her smiling bitterly at me.. <br/>With tears on her eyes,<br/>again.<br/><br/><br/><br/><br/>I WAS just staring at the ceiling after Kona left. She would never sleep with me after doing it. She acts like she's just a bedwarmer. She would always say that she isn't the heroine of my story. But can I blame her? I made her like that. I am the reason she thinks so low of herself, and I don't know why I can't change that. I was in war with myself. <br/><br/>I tweaked my hair and threw away the bottles of beer on my bedside table.<br/><br/>I'M A FUCKING MESS. <br/>But why the fuck did I made Kona a mess as well?</p>

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