7 The Past

For the rest of the week I had to watch Jimin and Yoonji bicker and Nari staring at Jungkook shamelessly. Every single one of us have delivered or club applications. At the same time Taehyung started to act strange, he wouldn't talk to anyone except Jungkookie and Jimin. He didn't want to sit with us or hang with us. I didn't get to find out what was wrong before the weekend started. We decided to head to Seoul at the weekend.

After a day with shopping we went to the hotel room we booked and prepared us for bed. Then we all sat on Yoonji's bed.

"Maybe I should start." I started saying. ", Taehyung and I were childhood friends, we have known each other since kindergarten. I used to call him Tae and he used to call me Jinnie. When we started elementary school, we met a girl named Taeri, she started mocking me and it became bullying at the end. She bullied me because Taehyung's father owns a big company and my family were poor. She thought that I didn't deserve to be friends with Taehyung. Taehyung would always protect me from her. At the start of the last year of high school I realized that I started to develop romantic feelings towards Taehyung. The feelings were growing stronger through the year. At the end of the year I decided to confess to Taehyung. Right after I confessed, I ran away in embarrassment. When I arrived at home, I heard mom and dad talk about Taehyung's father. They said that he had arrived home. Then I didn't hear anymore about him. Next day Taehyung didn't come to my house and walk with me to school like we always did. I thought he was sick, so I sent a message and asked him. He left me on read. Then when I arrived at school, I saw him drop off Taeri, from his car before parking it. He always said to me that he didn't like to drive, that's why we walked every day. I walked towards him, but he avoided me and when I started to shout Taehyung, he walked away ignoring me. Then Taeri walked towards me, she told me the most heartbreaking things I have ever heard. She said 'Taehyung is engaged to me. Don't try to be the third person in this relationship. I will be nice to you and let you decide where you and your family are moving. I obviously can't have you here with Taehyung. Please tell me at the end of today, I will help your family find jobs and financially help you get there. If you don't tell me before the school ends, I will just randomly choose a place and send you there, but I will not help you financially or help your parents find jobs.' That broke my heart. I almost couldn't breathe. At the same time, I never got an answer from Taehyung. I tried talk to Taehyung the whole school day, but he ignored me and acted like I weren't there. With each attempt the pain in my heart only grew bigger. Right before the school ended, I went to talk to Taeri, I told her that I wanted to move to Daegu, because I can't be that selfish to bring pain to my parents. They deserve to live happy lives. Then I walked out of the school, and right outside were Taehyung. I walked towards him, but he said 'You've probably heard this, I'm engaged, please refrain from talking to me. I don't want to be labelled as a cheater." That broke my heart completely. Without me noticing tears have been formed and fell down my cheeks, while watching Taehyung pull off with Taeri. When I arrived home, my parents cheerfully and excitedly told me that they have gotten better jobs in Daegu. Then we moved here, and I go to Daegu University."

Without me noticing tears fell down my face while I told this story. My friends being who they were, ran to get tissues right after I told my story.

"So, that's the story of you and Taehyung. It's so sad, but why are you so friendly with Taehyung now? Didn't he break your heart?" Yoonji said confused.

"Well, you know, it doesn't help keeping grudges. I've learned my lesson and will not fall for him again." I said trying to sound convincing. The truth is no matter what I still care for him and love him.

"What if you realize that you still love him?" Nari asked "Will you confess to him, keep the feelings hidden, stop talking to him or something else?"

"If that ever happens, I will of course keep it inside me so that I won't destroy our friendship with their group." I answered.

"What if he has feelings for you Jinhee?" Yoonji asked "What would you do?"

"He probably wouldn't have any feelings for me." I answered with a sad smile. "If he did and confessed, he must have messed up his feelings, he probably doesn't feel anything for me." Damn it was hard saying these words. Although it will never become a reality, it's nice to have a hope that maybe one day he will feel the same. Although if I do that, I will become the third person in his marriage. That's something I do not wish.