9 Chad

Hi, I'm Chad and I want to tell you about my high school experience.

I attend Sun High. This school is actually really great. I find myself loving school more than being at home. My friends are great, my teachers are great and y parents are great at everything other than when it comes to school. That issue is a bad topic to talk about.

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My school life is great. I have made many friends who like me just for the real me. My teachers speak so well of me. I am class president and have been in number one in test in the whole school. No one has yet to claim this place from me and I don't think they ever will because the day a person takes my place is the day my world comes crashing down.

Let me explain. My parents love me and all but I feel that there is a big amount of pressure towards me being really good at school. My parents love to brag about me and talk about how proud they are of me. I feel some kind of pressure towards school now. This was great and all until two summers ago. My parents started going crazy and wouldn't let me do things that weren't related to school. I couldn't go on trips because I had to study for a test that was coming in eight months. I couldn't have a crush on anyone because that would distract me from what really matters.

This pressure made me think to myself, "What would happen if I wasn't first in school anymore". This scared me but also made me curious. I held all of it and tried my best to do my best for them but it was the last of my school year and I wanted to do things other kids did.

I decided to defy my parents and go to a party. I didn't drink or anything just wanted to hang with my friends outside of school for one time. My mom got pissed at me and came into the party and dragged me out. She scolded me in front of everyone and that was really embarrassing. When we got home she said that I couldn't go anywhere unless it was for study groups. I had to be the best so that others would look at me and be jealous.

There was one time I couldn't take the pressure and even wanted to kill myself but I couldn't do it. Instead, when we had our midterm test I tried my hardest to flunk it. I didn't want the title of class president or number one anymore. I just wanted to be normal.

Test results came back and I ranked the lowest out of everyone. Everyone was really surprised but I played it off and said it wasn't a big deal. When I got home, my mom already knew the news and scolded me. I didn't listen to her because for the first time, I felt free. The next day at school, everyone looked at me weirdly but that was fine I guess. What was shocking was that my teachers looked at me weirdly too but like really weird. My friends pretended not to know me and everyone just stopped talking to me. Why? What was the reason?

(To be continued)