10 Fear

"There's no way I will ever leave you, Jaz. when you walked through my door everything changed, even though I first thought you might try to rob me. I very much hoped I was wrong though, I couldn't believe a woman so beautiful could possibly come in just to rob me. In my defence though, you were acting like you were on something. You were stuttering and seemed to be lost." She was blushing slightly from embarrassment.

I could not help but laugh about it. There is no way I would rob anyone, especially a beautiful woman like her. E'Lara was poking at my side and telling me to stop laughing, that it was not funny.

"It is funny though. Mostly because I actually was lost, I had no idea how I ended up here. One minute I was attempting to hunt around the bars cause I couldn't sleep after my dream, the next I was standing at your door wondering how and why I had walked somewhere I'd never been before. At least until I came in and heard your voice. I knew then that even though my head was confused, my feet knew where to go. I'm sorry I scared you but in my defence, I never expected to see you again so I was in shock when I heard your voice."

She was smiling and giggling a little. "I don't see why you think you couldn't tell me. I probably, in fact, I know I wouldnt of treated you like I did. And I'm sorry I did when you asked about the book but it's one thing my grandmother taught me, everyone is guilty until proven innocent. so far, it's done well for me that is until I met you," She bops me on the nose. "I wanted so badly to go against what I was taught that it was hard for me to treat you that way. I spent most of my time thinking how much I would love for you to be one of the good guys. I just never expected you to be a dark chaser. There's so little we know of your kind that I didn't know what to expect. Only thing I could be certain of is that it would be a woman. Every documented chaser has been a woman." She smiles at my confused look.

"What? Why has it always been a woman? Are we really that special?" I am so lost and confused all over again.

"You really haven't been reading anything, have you?" She knows I has not. "If you had you'd know that dark chasers are women because men aren't as strong willed enough to stay light souls. Men were, still are, seen as weaker and therefore, not able to have your abilities as a dark chaser. The fates decided this long ago. What has been bothering me most is that I have never heard of a chaser who was born with their abilities. Most don't come into their abilities until they hit puberty. Usually they are found and taken in for training so they can be used for the light." She spoke as she absently strokes my hair.

She suddenly got up and grabbed a book off the desk and flips through it looking for something. The more she flips the pages, the more determined she seems to get. I was not really sure if she was going to tell me what she was looking for or if I should just wait. I had an idea though.

"You looking for anything specific or just a starting point? Cause I'd like to help. Especially if it can tell me why I seem to be the only one that's been born this way." I was not entirely sure I wanted to know what I was getting in to, though.

"Well, I remember my grandmother talking about it as if she was a part of something similar but I wasn't sure how that was possible because she always told me she hadn't known a chaser before. Now that I met you it makes more sense." Again she was speaking as if I were able to follow along.

"Haven't you realized by now that I don't understand what you're saying? You've grown up learning about this, you know all this, you get all of this. I, on the other hand, don't know up from down when it comes to this." I am not really upset but I am a bit annoyed I am clueless as to what has become of my own life.

"Well, since you were adopted, that would explain why you weren't found by the seekers. They look for all light souls who aren't born within the walls of the temple." It's like the more she says, the more lost I become.

My head was beginning to spin and I have to lay down on the love seat. "My parents weren't exactly honest with me about anything, especially after they had me committed. I found out I was adopted after I tracked down the hospital I was born at and read my file."

E'Lara walks over to me and sits on the edge of the coffee table. I look over at her and smile. I am truly glad to have someone to help me sort out all this madness that has become my life.

"You know, you don't have to stress about everything so much, love." She leans forward and kisses me. "I'm here for you and I promise, we will figure this out together." She smiles and kisses me again.

I take her hand in mine. "I know, I know. l just wish I knew at least half the things you do so I'm not so lost when you start in about stuff." I could not help but smile because I truly feel like a moron when she starts talking about this stuff.

She smiles even more and giggles. "It's alright, Jaz, you can be the brawn and I'll be the brain. I know you'd like to be both but we can't always get what we want." She winks at me and crinkles her nose while laughing.

I chuckle and feel like a weight has lifted off my shoulders. "Alright, alright. You can be the brains, for now." I wink back at her then pull her into my lap and kiss her deeply as I let my hands wander, explore every part of her body. Before I know it, we have made our way up the stairs and to her bed with a trail of clothes behind us.