1 Her Denial

He reached for the hem of my dress at the slightest opportunity. It didn't seem very convenient so I pulled off my dress. I felt a little embarrassed because I was putting on my ugly white bra; today of all days! and it matched with my panties. I made an effort to cover my body with my hands but it was pointless, in fact it was too late now because Lucas was already staring at me. "Alice you are so beautiful. Don't be shy. Don't be. Come here", he pulled me closer and kissed my forehead, my eyes, my nose, my neck and I instantly felt a lot better.

　　His smile was so inviting and teasing. "Alice are you okay with this?", honestly I do not want to overthink this "Can you just get on with it", I'd be damned if I didn't feel him inside me. I had waited so long for this moment. Not even when he looks so irresistible. He leaned towards me and plants a hungry kiss on my lips. I could feel his arousal stirring as I passionately kiss him back. I threw my arms around his shoulder while I fall back into the kiss. There was nothing careful about this kiss, as if we had spent the past year apart, as if Lucas had returned from a battle field to my arms. My fingers clawed into his muscles and I could hear his slight moan. It felt like I could feel his arousal shimmering in his loins; I could feel him gradually growing hard against me. I gave a small moan as I felt the bulge and hardness on my thighs. He slid his fingers around the back of my head and drew me closer. His hands made me tremble with pleasure. Without a warning, I slid my hands along his hips until I found the band to his pants. Lucas barely pulled back from the kiss. "Alice are you sure about this?", he asked breathlessly. I didn't answer verbally in the stead, I loosened the first button on his shirt. I felt joy as the buttons sprang open under my fingers without stress. In seconds, I pulled the shirts and with his assistance, his pants were down too. I carefully placed my hands on his chest as if to trace the structure of his chest. He closed his eyes to respond to my touch. I slowly lowered my hands gradually trailing around his groins. My desire was pulsing through my veins. I had never felt something like this; something so hard as response to my touch. "Alice!", he monad my name as I gently stroke his length; this has to be how it's done. I stroke back and forth and this definitely has to feel good. Seeing Lucas like this was a first. I felt butterflies in my belly knowing the effect I had on him. Without warning, I leaned towards his length and pressed my lips against it. I planted careful kisses at the tip perhaps in an attempt not to hurt it; I don't know but it just felt so tender. I brushed along his hard length back and forth while stroking it. "Alice!", his voice was hoarse this time. "Hmm?", I murmured still slipping him between my lips. He placed his hands at the back of my head as if to guide my head to move in his rhythm. I tenaciously swallowed him deeper and deeper till nothing else mattered. The only that mattered to me was to know how he felt being that it was my first time. My eyes began to tear up. He slowly pulls me back and lifts my head up to face him. "I love you so much, Alice", I could see the sincerity in his eyes. "Come here", he says and lays me flat on the bed . He spreads my legs and caresses my inner thighs. That action alone triggered a soft moan out of me. He slipped his hands through my panties subtly. I made an attempt to pull my panties but he stopped my hands from moving. This was new to me but Hell be damned, I was ready for anything with Lucas. I could feel his hands fondling with my wet sensitive lips. At the instant connection of his hands and those lips; we both moan in sync. I could have given anything to see what was going through his mind. Lucas didn't stop at fondling; I could feel every movement of his fingers inside me; exploring. At this point, several breathless moans proceeded from me of course. He pulled out his finger and pulled down my wet panties. "It may hurt a…", he manages to say before I cut him off as I already knew what he was about to say. "Lucas! Just do it". He raised my body and fumbles while trying to unhook my bra. I was going to help but I decided against it. Eventually, the bra was tossed aside in seconds. He beamed at me with desire and perhaps lust. He cupped my bosom in his large hands and leaned towards them. He gently sucks on the right; fondling with my nipples. A soft moan escaped from my mouth as he fondled my left bosom. My body couldn't stay still. As if that wasn't enough, his hard length brushes my thighs and it tickled. I was literally going to burst with emotions. He cups my head into his hand while tilting my chin to face him as if to distract me. I could feel his length struggling to enter me. He pushed it inside me slowly and that caused a painful moan "I'm sorry baby. I won't hurt you ever again", his words were so soothing. He pushes his length fully inside me and kept on going back and forth but this time aggressively that I almost want him to pull out. "Lucas! That hurts!", I almost begin to cry. "I'm sorry", he kisses me. He goes at a fast pace this time but it doesn't hurt as mush as the first time. I saw the gleam in his eyes; he wanted this hard and urgent. I couldn't deny him of that. I felt his thrust; it was so delicious and rhythmic that I thought the tension might shatter me. He was in me; all of him was in me, he was buried into my clenching warmth. That was all I could think of. I tuck on his hair aggressively and that earned a moan from him. "Yes baby. Do that again", I tuck on his hair again and caress his back. He pushes his length but this time, faster. My soul left my body in that very moment. I didn't know what to say. All I could do was moan from this sweet pain. I wanted him to go faster and deeper. "Lucas! Hmm", I moan. "Call my name baby", I tuck on his hair as I call his name. He was breathing jagged gasps until I could feel the tension in his body as it erupted and with the click of a finger, he burst into me with a rough cry that seemed to rise from the tips of his toes. This has to be the best feeling ever. I felt his weight on me and I wondered why I didn't feel it earlier. I could feel his length soften inside me. "Lucas! I can't…breathe…", his weight on me had taken away my breathe literally. "Oh! I'm sorry love", he fell back on the bed and rolled me on top of him effortlessly. He was beaming at me with a smile bright enough to light up the room.

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The memories I shared with Lucas came rushing in with every details as he walked through that door. As if it wasn't enough that I was having a very stressful day. The universe has to be against me at this point. I can't believe my worst nightmare was hovering around me in this bar. "Alice?!", Chloe called out my name which instantly brought me out of my thoughts. "Alice are you okay? Do you need a break?", she asks out of concern. "No no.. Chloe I'm fine. Besides I'm almost done with my lapse. Let me just see it through", I tell her not exactly sure if she fell for my reply. Chloe had always had my back. Though she was the manager and literally put my life in order, she was still very humble. "It doesn't seem like it. What's on your mind Alice?", she asks. I couldn't bring myself to tell her that my childhood lover who dissappeared into thin air after impregnating me was sitting across the table. How? Perhaps, he knew where I was all along? Of all places, why Sikh he choose to come to bar where I work? How do I get answers to this questions?