7 [Chapter 7]: The Band Trials

I couldn't seem to catch my breath, today's practice is the longest and most tiring. Everyone too, looks so tired and couldn't seem to catch their breaths. "Are we done?" Caiden asked. "For today, yes, but there'll be more of those harsh practices, as the day is almost near." I said and everyone seemed to cool off, everyone panting and taking a sigh, a deep one. They all wrapped up their stuff and went out. This time, it's unnatural, Caleb went out first, without even hesitating to glance at me nor smile. My face looked like I am sulking, it's because I am. I don't know now how should I fix this problem between us, but I ain't gonna take back the fact that I told him that he should be with Gale instead. I hate myself for this, I like Caleb but I thought about Gale's feelings first without realizing I have never though of how would Caleb feel. I've been like this to him thise whole time, selfish, not realizing how he feels.

Caiden was the last one who left, "This isn't suppose to happen, right?" he said and I looked at him, I nodded. "I— I just did what was right." I said and Caiden shook his head, "Making him suffer like that wasn't wise at all, it wasn't right. You have thought of something that you think is right but it isn't, because the right will never make someone suffer over something wrong." he said. He was right and this leave me in a moment of silence for a second, fuck it, I'm feeling so guilty right now. "Look I—" before finishing it, "Redo everything, rethink, this time, wiser. Think who should you understand and who should suffer over something that this time, is actually right. We all love someone, and love refers to happiness, hey, Authern, I know you like him, you'll give him happiness, he was approaching you this whole time, and I think making him suffer over a wrong idea isn't right at all. Think wisely, Authern, you can do this." he said, it was deep, but tears started falling on my eyes, I like Caleb but I have made him suffer all this time, I really am selfish.

This day isn't the perfect timing though, we should have spaces first between us to calm each other down. I'll do everything for him to forgive me, I'll tell him what I really feel, and what is right. Ever since I met Caleb, it was no doubt that he had changed, we both did a favor to each other, he gave me so much happiness that could never be trade off with anything. I do owe him something, I have to pay him.

—Next Day—

The day happened again, just like before, Caleb is ignoring me. How am I suppose to talk to him like this? Will he ignore me forever?

I went to the council's room, this time, Mint's face never changed. As we were both alone in the room, I went to him and talked to him. "H— hey, I know that we aren't close that much, but not that I'm eavesdropping or butting in your life, but these past few days, I realized your face doesn't look well, will you tell me why please?" and he looked at me, tears started falling on his eyes. "The person you love the most, if you never get to tell them how you really feel, things will never improve, rather it will worsen. I like Arthur, all these time, but since I hid this feeling and these stuff to him, he got a girlfriend now, things, I knew, had worsen he said just hit me directly into my heart. Fuck, it hurts. "Fuck" I muttered. "Are you alright?" I asked him and he nodded. "I tried moving on, but I couldn't." he said. "What's your plan now?" I asked, "I'll be with him forever, I'll be someone he can rely the most. That's what I should do." he said and I realized something, I couldn't bear seeing Caleb with someone else. I need to rush, however, things will slow down if he keeps on ignoring me, I realize.

The bell rang and the practice should start any soon so I must be there, specially now that this'll probably be the last band practice we'll ever have. I went to the music room, as same as before, Caleb isn't hesitating takimg a glance at me. "Let's start." I said and everyone started. I realized something though, this wasn't the same performance they had shown me before, this time, it was better, but it was all the work of Caleb. His voice had change, his tone suits perfectly into each melody, he is showing expression through each words that leaves his mouth, he even had facial expressions, and he do really feel the song. I smiled at him, "So you're actually better huh?" I muttered and tears slowly fell down through my eyes, "You okay?" Caiden asked, and I realized that I'm crying, "S— shit, yes." I looked back at I wiped off my tears. "I think this is the last practice we'll ever have, so everyone, I would like to say you did improve alot, I want to see this as your very first achievement to fulfill, so please, do your best alright?" I said and everyone shouted 'yes' while smiling. Everyone left, I didn't mind Caleb and I was left alone, again. The very last day I'll ever see this club room again, I wandered my eyes around it smiling, telling myself I'll miss this. I went outside, it was quite dark.