Heart made of stone

All my life, love has always been a painful decision. Just thinking of loving someone again make my heart pains. People I thought are my family and friends just abandon me for cheap reasons. It hurts. To be judged by people u loved, having to survive on your own because people simply don't care, wanting to love someone, just one person but afraid that we may be hurt, not knowing who to trust. l these brought me to a painful but better solution, I'll just move away from people, move away from family, never love someone again, staying without anything or anyone to care about is better than having my heart ache because of some worthless human, so I'll just live the rest if my life with a heart made of stones, an emotionless and expressionless life, just then will I be able to regain myself from that mystery called love.