REASON

It's Saturday morning means I don't have work today. All I can say is thanks God. I can have a lot of sleep and I can eat 5 meals HAHAHAHA I am a heavy eater. Wait, I have a coupon here of a new open shabu-shabu restaurant I must check that one.

"Nurse Kath are you free today?" I ask Kath as I check my phone about the address of the restaurant I want to go later.

"Doc Ligaya, the happy pill did you forget that we have the same rest day? So that means I am free today." She said with a sarcastic voice. I laughed at what she said.

"What I mean Kath, is that aren't you going out? Maybe you have plan on going out with your boyfriend?" I said to her correcting my question earlier.

"No, I don't have. He's busy anyway. Busy flirting with the other nurse." She said with an annoyed sound. I'm used to that and I'm tired of advising her because she won't listen to me afterwards.

Kathlyn Mendoza, my closest friend here in the hospital where I am working. Her boyfriend is also a Nurse and a flirty one.

"Okay, want to join me I'll go to the new open shabu shabu restaurant. I'm really hungry." I look at her and sees she's done preparing her things.

"Okay, are you going to use your car?" she asks me.

"That's fine, let's go."

We drove by 20 minutes before we reach the restaurant. As we arrive in front of the restaurant, I can clearly see the name of the restaurant Shabu-Shabu. After we parked my car, me and Kath hurriedly come in. We ordered a lot because my last meal was yesterday 6 pm and it's already 10 am. The monsters in my tummy are shouting already HAHAHA. The smell of the meat and soup, is really heaven for me.

"Ligaya, how's your patient? You operated him last night, right?" Kath asks in between our meals.

"Yeah, he had a coronary angioplasty. We lasted almost 3 hours operating but he's fine now. I thank God for that." As I looked up above saying my thanks to God for my successful operation.

"You're really great Surgeon Ligaya." She says as she shows her thumbs up.

After that small talk about my surgery we continue eating. As I am about to eat my last bite, I saw an old woman holding a balloon walking on the street she seems looking for something. As I watch her, I remember my grandmother.

**

"Lola, I want balloon." I said while looking at the vendor outside. Today's Sunday and the mass just finish. I am living with my grandmother since I was 3 months old. My mother left me here because she can't raise me at that time, she was broke because she just found out that my father had a family already. She goes to Canada and got married a year after. Both of my parents have families of their own, and maybe they already forgot about me. But I don't have grudge about them because I have my grandmother, my Lola.

"Ligaya you already bought one last Sunday." my grandma said as she was pertaining to the balloon.

"But I want that one. It's different from what we bought last Sunday." I said with my pouting lips hoping it would work.

"Okay, but this would be the last one. You already had five floating balloons." my grandma said while going to the vendor.

"Alright grandma, I love you!" and give her a flying kiss.

"I love you too, Ligaya" my grandma replied.

After grandma paid for the balloon, she tied it in my arms,

"I'll tie this so it won't fly. Remember Ligaya that you are precious, you should bring happiness that's who you are." my grandma said while she's tying the balloon. We walk to the sidewalk waiting for a taxi. It was a hot afternoon, the sun rays hitting my skin. There is no available taxi that is why we're still standing. I was holding my grandmas' hand as we wait for a ride when suddenly, she collapsed. I was shocked, I can't move. Seeing my grandma lying on the street. I don't know what to do, some people near us are looking at us.

There is a middle-aged man come to grandma

"Someone please calls an ambulance! What happened?" he asked me, that's when I came back to my senses. I didn't even realize that I was already crying.

"My grandma collapsed; I don't know why. She's just standing here a while ago and" I cried,

"Hold your grandma's hand" the man told me and I hurriedly do that I hold my grandmas' hand tight. The man suddenly goes to my grandma. He put his fingers in my grandmas' neck, I don't know what he's doing. He then suddenly positioned himself at the top of my grandma and put his hands in my grandma's chest and pump it. I don't know what to do. I am so useless; grandma please don't leave me. I won't be a brat; I will be a good granddaughter.

"Please save my grandma." I said to the man, after a while he stop as the ambulance arrived.

"What's your name child? "the man asks me

"Ligaya" the man smiled after hearing my name

"Please be strong Ligaya." The man says with apologetic eyes.

"July 9, 2002 Time of death 10:33 a.m." he added

***

I came back to reality when Kath poke me.

"What?" I ask annoyingly

"What are you thinking? You're spacing out." She said

"Nothing, just continue eating." She frowned of what I said.

My grandma died because of heart failure, the reason why I want to become one of the heart surgeons.

Lola, I miss you. I am a licensed surgeon now. I hope you're happy there, guide me always Lola. I Love You.