2 2 - Learning occlumency and more spells.

I'm currently looking at my memories and magic core.

Rowling never really explained how magic worked in the books and it turns out there is a light bluish green ball of mist the size of a golf ball in my chest. Well I say in my chest, but it's not physically there it's almost impossible to explain correctly. I know it's there but I can't see it with my eyes, I can see it with my mind, I can feel it.

Anyway, I'm not sure if my magic core is considered big or small or if everyone's core is the same colour but there's no way for me to tell so I put that thought away for later. As for seeing my memories, it's a bit complicated which I'm assuming is because of my previous life.

All of my memories are like small balls of light that contain memories if I concentrate on them. All of the memories I have since being born in this world are mostly white with a greenish hue while the ones of my previous life are almost completely white with a bit of yellow mixed in.

Sorting my memories was interesting.

The memories of being in this world were completely clear and easy to sort. My memories of my previous life, however, was different. They were.. blurry, for lack of a better word. It seems with my magic, using occlumency I can see all my memories in perfect recall, while my memories I have without magic are sort of incomplete. They're all there but it's as if each ball of light that contains a memory is like trying to remember a dream. You can see the key parts and even some details, let's take my earliest memory for example. In this world I remember being born with... disturbing clarity while my earliest previous life memory is of my 5th birthday and even that only has a few details.

The last few years of my previous life are fairly clear and I can remember almost all of what I did but they're still bad compared to my new lifes memories.

In the past year I've sorted my memories to a standard I'm satisfied with, first I separated my two lifes memories which was fairly easy considering they're two different colours.

Then I put them on two different planets. That's right! Planets!

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Okay, fine! They're not as big as planets but neither is Pluto!

I created two circular land masses the size of a small country and considering there are no laws in my mind like gravity or air resistance it wasn't that hard it was just.. time consuming.

But I've finally completed them and so I moved my previous life memories right into the core of one of the 'planets' and created a layer of diamond around them. I don't really need access to them as long as they're in my mind unless I want to visit them and get a better recall of something but considering I don't need to do that in my previous life memories I've just sealed them as good as I can for the moment, I don't have any counterattacks at the moment but I I doubt anybody will even know they're there considering there's no reason to look for them and I made the planet invisible.

That's right, it's completely invisible. Unless you're looking for it, you won't be able to find it.

Now, onto my new lifes memories. I've created a huge castle made of a black stone that I created that's stronger than most metals. I tested it with a rocket and it was barely damaged.

Now.. you might be wondering where I knew how to make a rocket and the answer is, I didn't

I just imagined a rocket shaped object exploding and considering this is my mind powered by my imagination, it worked fairly well. I didn't really enjoy making a layout of the castle and I think it's little wonky.

What I mean by that is I'm fairly certain some rooms are bigger than they should be and well.. I know I said physical laws like gravity or space are meaningless here but.. I wasn't trying to break the laws of space so I've decided I'll make sure I have a image in my head before messing with my mindscape.

Moving on, I created a huge library of blank books and slowly put each memory into a different book and made it so that if you're not me and don't know the password then the books, if touched, will catch fire and no water will stop them from spreading onto the intruder sort of like feindfyre. Well I think that's how feindfyre works.

As for the password? I grouped that together into my previous life memories.

To put it simply, I don't think anyone will be getting into my mind anytime soon

Now that I think about it, while not a master occlumens just yet, I already have an almost unbreakable defence at 4... damn I'm pretty good.

In this year and a half from 3 to 4 and a half my magic hasn't increased all that much considering I spent almost all of my free time on occlumency it's still just around golf ball size but using magic for over a year wandlessly was pretty good for my core.

I'm now 5 years old and I'm going to school.

Now I thought about this a bit... well for days considering there isn't much to do at the orphanage other than think.. especially for an adult who used to read tens of novels a day and decided.

I'm gonna act like a genius.

Well considering my memory is already very good due to the constant meditating and once I see something I can come back to it later in my mindscape and see it perfectly at a faster speed, I guess I actually am a genius but well, I'm getting distracted.

These few years of my life have been fairly embarrassing. Now I don't consider myself a prideful person, I can admit when I'm wrong and am fine not being the best at something but... not having control over my bowel movements and not being able to stop the matron of the orphanage from helping... well lets say I sometimes regret learning occlumency so young.

As for the school problem, I've decided I'm gonna try and pass high-school by the time I'm 11.

Well.. that's assuming I get my Hogwarts letter. I don't see a reason why I wouldn't get one but you never know. There a few basic things I forgot to mention such as I do live in London so Hogwarts should have my name.

I entertained the idea of going to the Leaky Cauldron and seeing if my parents had a vault with money then buying a ton of magical books. Then I realised that I'm 5 and I doubt anyone would let me buy books on my own without my parents, no matter how little common sense the wizarding world has.

Speaking of my parents, it seems I resemble my father a lot more than my mother, I have black hair and light blue eyes and the only thing that I can see that's inherited from my mother is my nose. Honestly, I'm a cute kid, it's kinda hard to miss considering the matron, who's a 40 year old something lady with brown hair and grey eyes, pinches my cheeks almost everyday no matter how much I try to make her stop and I have to admit I'll probably have pretty good looks in the future.