45 Days of Frustration

"I'm sorry Tara .." Ronn whispered in his bed . He was sniffing and weeping .His teary eyes were still reddish and his cheeks tasted the salty painful tears . Near his face laid a beautiful photo of Tara smiling . Ronn peeped to it now and then and weeps again . "I shouldn't have told you .. why would you love me .. I should have atleast looked myself at mirror before even thinking about proposing to you . .." Ronn blathered something .He laid in his bed in the dark . All moments with Tara flashed infront of him . The first day I saw her ... Ronn thought in mind . A small smile rushed to his face for a moment and faded the very next second ... I have lost my Angel ..

Ronn told to himself . He slapped his face in anger "You are a fool .. How could you even deserve Tara ! Karthik and Tara makes a cute pair .. Not even in her worst nightmares would she wish to be with me .. " Ronn slapped his face and hid his face deep into the pillow and screamed a short scream . I wish I could muster up the courage and say I was just Kidding with her and laugh like a fool .. atleast maybe then she would atleast keep me a a friend . Ronn took his phone to dial her and say sorry but he couldn't . Each time he saw her face he felt more and more guilty .

One side Love is a awfully beautiful thing , even when it whack you painfully in heart , you still love the pain to be whacked . You still Love the person more and more deeply . Stains of his tears stayed on his cheeks . His puffy eyes and broken heart still stared at Tara's pictures . "I donno what she might be thinking right now .. Maybe she is waiting for Karthik. Maybe she is just cursing the moment she chose to be friendly with me .. Maybe she is fast asleep .. " Ronn told to himself . "I shall return back to Kerala . I hope Karthik won't slap me for proposing Tara. I hope someday Tara would forget my mistake and she come to me with no hesitation , look straight to my eyes and ask " how have you been , idiot ?" I hope someday all these happen .. but not now . Now Tara is so pissed at me . She will hate my presence . I shall step back. I shall go away from her and let her be happy with Karthik , forgetting this thorn on her bed of roses . I wish this day never happened .. never ..... but today was beautiful , except for my foolishness . I think I should pack my stuffs and catch the next train . Ronn looked at the clock , it was past 9.00 . He started to pack his things in a hurry .

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Tara ' s situation wasn't the same as Ronn though . She had been planning and awaiting for Karthik all these days but this day have changed the whole thing . She layed on her bed all numb and motionless . She even forgot that Karthik can come any moment and she had to get ready . Tears didn't rolled down her cheeks but she had a feeling that her blood in heart drying up and a severe pain of crack down the heart . She couldn't figure out what's wrong with her but she know that she couldn't be happy even if she wants to be . " No proposal in my life have made me this weak by heart . I can't even breathe normally ." Thought she . She looked up to the photo they took few days back . "You had been in love with me when this was took right Ronn?" Tara blabbered . "But i didn't know .." She sniffed . She looked in the picture and told herself

"How happy I was with you then .." She felt her eyes getting teary but she hid her face under pillow . I have always loved you Ronn .. but not the way lovers love .. Tara murmured . It was a windy day outside , Tara's mind was like a land right after a tornado - all messy and scattered . The pink curtains in her room flied high aimlessly . Through the open window Tara gazed outside sleeping on her bed. The moon was rather dull that day . It's more cloudy , but surely not cloudy than her teary eyes . The pale rustling of leaves were heard from far . The dead leaves below each trees merrily danced in the free wind . Spirits seemed to escape from their bodies and get free to wander aimlessly through the endless paradise of world . Tara was trapped in her weeping soul . A lightning flashed and Tara's pinkish blurry face was visible for a moment in the dark . In the dim light Tara took the photograph of Ronn and her from the table. She kept it close to her face . She looked at his face for a moment. She scratched her nails through his face

"You had a chance all these years and you fell in love with me when it's too late , I can't betray Karthik . Forgive me Ronn .." Tara said in a tone mixed in anger and helplessness . She glared at his face for few moments more and threw the frame frustrated . "You shouldn't have told me .." Tara said a little louder and suddenly heard a loud Thunder and suddenly she kept her right hand on her heart and whispered "I hope Ronn's home and safe ."

Suddenly she got surprised at why she told so . She went near the window and looked out through the window . "It's been a day since I haven't talked to him .I can't let it go like this . I can't sleep peacefully when I have a feeling that he is crying . That's so unfair . I want to meet him and solve everything . I hope he is home . " She felt the cold whether . The breeze swayed through her thin hair which she let free . She tucked her hair behind her ears and suddenly it reminded her of Ronn . She looked around in the dark room and in the dull ambience too , each thing she saw around had a personal story connecting Ronn . That was a moment she realised how deeply Ronn have set roots in her heart . "It will rain soon ... but why should I be thinking of someone who betrayed my feelings" .... After a moment's silence she thought , "but why in the hell am I still thinking about that idiot and hoping him to talk to me .. waiting for his call .. You are more stupid than him Tara .. ahhh !!! Tara screamed pulling her hair in frustration . She walked towards the door and suddenly the door opened and a familiar voice echoed ..

"I am back little princess .." She muttered in shock .. "Karthik !!"

... To be continued ..... ( Thank you all for your Supports ... ) 🥺