3 FIRAT LIFE FEAR

A few years pass and, some differences have popped up, one being that my sister and I wouldn't always do everything together, I still don't speak much, although to her I can easily make an acception, I don't know how but I feel like I am isolated from everyone, the world gives me a sense of terror and discomfort, I don't want to live in this world, everything seems unorganized, and distorted, everyone carries a strange expression on their faces, faces that I am not aware of.

My sister is the only person who seems to understand me and I feel like she has my very same mind, she is the one who truly knows how I feel, the only person in this strange world that can truly melt my fear away, the only one of my peers that can really tell how I feel when I am feeling down, I don't know how she does it.

She is a very beautiful young woman, a kind heart people say, I very much appreciate her point of view on the world. She took a job in a Mr. Subaru-san's home, he is a rich man and seems to acknowledge my sister's work in his household, for he has a large home and only three(3) servants to help him keep it going, one to cook, my sister to clean and another clothing designs. Although this all sounds very pleasing, I don't exactly trust this man, one being the fact that, he takes my sister away from me daily, and before you tell me I am being overprotective, I would like to prove you wrong, he would give a strange look to my sister any time she is around him, and I tried to bring it up with my sister, but she told me the same, "don't worry Hamajin, you are just being protective, I will be fine, Subaru-san is a very honorable man". I took her word for it and stopped fussing to her about it, although I still questioned his actions towards my sister.

One evening as I came over to check up on Asahami from Subaru-san's abode, and I was shocked at what I saw and heard through the window...

ASAHAMI POV

"Hamaji, you are just worrying for nothing, I know that you are just concerned with my safety, but don't bother yourself on where I am, I will be fine, ok'', I said, "but just so we are clear, no matter where you are, you will never leave me, right?'',Hamajin asked," don't worry we will always have each other, I promise''.

Later that week, Mr Subaru-san, has asked me to come over this afternoon for a mid-day cleaning, I will be back before this evening, I took my black and white maid uniform and proceeded to his home.

A few minutes later and I get to his house on time, I knocked the door and he stands in front of me, but this time he had a very curious expression on his face, he seemed to have a good day or something, or maybe he just met someone earlier that day because he seemed rather smitten.

"Welcome Asahami-san, come inside'', said Subaru-san, as he kindly gestured for Asahami to enter.

I came inside and went into the dresser to change into my uniform, I finished getting dressed and began cleaning, "Asahami, I have to say that I am not nearly pleased with your actions, if anything I feel rather disappointed about you", said Subaru-san, Asahami looks at him surprised and confused, "but sir I haven't done anything in my knowledge to offend and or displease you, I have done everything as you have said haven't I?", Subaru-san walks over to Asahami and says, "yes I am aware,aware that you have done everything I have told you to do, but you haven't done to me what I 'need' you to do", he then places his arm around Asahami's waist and pulls himself closer to her, Asahami is startled and turns away from him while her face turns bright red, she tries to hide her face in her hands in order to prevent eye contact from him, " Subaru-san, I don't know what you mean, but this doesn't seem right, why are you telling me this now!?, Subaru looks at Asahami with content and lovingly wraps his arms around her from behind and cuddling her, "you are a good person Asahami, you are diligent and kind, you have worked for me for as long as I can remember, I just want you to know that ever since I learned more about you and your character, I have been smitten by you, your beauty is astounding and your kindness is a breath of fresh air, I just wanted you to know how I deeply feel about you", Subaru lets go of Asahami, takes a few steps back and places his hand in his pockets, while hanging his head, Asahami is still very surprised, her face is still a bright red, she takes a breath and faces Subaru-san, she approaches him and looks at him, Subaru opens his eyes and is surprised to see her in front of him but he says nothing, "Subaru-san, I have worked for you for as long as I can remember, I have come here daily to do my work, I wasn't expecting something like this, especially from you, you are a man of high standards, I don't understand how you could want me, when all other women of higher rankings than I, are fighting over you, I don't know what to say really'', Asahami looks downwards as if trying to brace for something, Subaru-san the lifts her by her chin and looks at her gently, "I understand, I will not force you to love me the way I love you,(sigh and rubs his neck with his hand) you may finish with your work and go home, you and the others have to come early again tomorrow, thank you for telling me". As he walks off, Asahami, grabs his arm and turns him towards her, Subaru turns to Asahami and looks at Asahami, but before he can question her, he tastes a soft feeling on his lips, Subaru-san melts, Asahami and Subaru-san's faces turns a bright red, Asahami draws back and says, "I said I wasn't expecting those words, I never said I never felt the same way", Subaru-san and Asahami express more of their feelings for each other by hugging their feelings out to each other, then Subaru asks," I would love it if you would come to live with me here, it will be nice to have someone to be with when others have gone, what do you say?, Asahami hesitates a bit before making up her mind, "yes, I would like that very much, hm".

(Hamaji had been watching and heard everything from that moment)

BACK TO HAJAMIN

I told her this man was of no good, and now look at this, she has left me for the likes of this man, how could she do this to me, she, she, she lyed to me?. Hamajin runs back to the house and remains.

(Some hours pass and Hasamaji and Asahami are back home)

(This is a dramatic part so their words are going to be displayed as scripted)

Asahami: so how was your day Hasamaji?'

but Hasamaji didn't answer,

Asahami: what's wrong, you've barely touched your food?, What's the matter?

Hamajin: why would you care?, Said Hasamaji bitterly,

Asahami: I beg your pardon

Hamajin:(sharply stands and puts her hands on the table), WHY DID YOU LYE TO ME?

Asahami: Hamajin

Hamajin: You told me, you would be fine!

Asahami: Hamajin, what are you talking about?

Hamajin: I saw you, I saw you at Subaru-san's home.

Asahami: what does that even have to do with....

Hamajin: you told me you were going to be fine, you gave me a reason not to worry, and LOOK AT WHAT YOU DID,

Asahami: I did tell you not to worry, but I don't understand why you are so angry

Hamajin: what, what is angry, I'm so confused (places both hands on her head and seems in pain)

Asahami: Hamajin relax I. . .

Hamajin: NO, NO,NO, I THOUGHT YOU KNEW ME, YOU SAID WE WOULD BE TOGETHER, AND NOW YOU'RE GOING TO LEAVE ME.

Asahami: Hamajin, you are grown woman, how can you act this way, get a hold of yourself. And besides you can take care of yourself can't you?

Hamajin: No, I DONT WANT....,(collapses on the ground with her hands over her chest)I don't want to be alone,(falls over into the floor), Not ever again.

Asahami:(runs over to Hamajin and kneels down beside her, scared and worried), HAMAJIN, HAMAJIN, oh no, oh no, help, help me,(picks up the phone and tries to call the health department)

While Hamajin slowly loses consciousness.

I was broken, I was hurt I was in pain, I had never felt something like that before, and now I don't feel anything, I trusted someone with my heart and look at what became of it.