1 I’m so confused

I stared at my parents as they walked out the door not even looking at me, I never understood why they was leaving but they said it was my fault because I wasn't like my older brother Rain, I never wanted to be like him, I mean I looked up to him for going to the military but I never wanted to go because I can't stand the sight of blood and loud sound make me jump. You could say I'm really sensitive to this but I have alot of fears. I hate loud noises, blood, really big dogs, being alone. People call me a big baby but since my parents never taught me to get over my fears they grow bigger and weird but what can I say that's just who I am. After my parents left they put the deed of the house in Rains name and left me a trust fund that I couldn't touch tell Rain got home. I watch them walk out the door but they never wished me goodbye nor told me that they didn't want me any more I just figured it out because they took all of their stuff with them. I got scared after awhile because I was all alone and Rain doesn't get home till next year so I was left to myself which wasn't fun, I picked up my phone and called the base where Rain was stationed at in Tokyo.

"Hello?" Rain yawned

"It's me rain, your little brother Alex" I whispered

"Oh Hey Alex, is everything ok?" He asked

"Not really mom and dad's just abandoned me" I told him

"What!? Why would they ugh" he growled

"Rain your scaring me" I whimper

"Sorry Alex but they are our parents" he explained

"They put the deed of the house in your name and gave me a trust fund" I huffed "they left a letter but they said if I open it before I'm eighteen they'll sue me"

"Fuck, I have to go but call back in like two hours ok, I'll be on the first flight back ok" he said moving around

"Ok bye Rain don't get hurt ok" I played with my shirt

"I will, stay safe" he said

"Yes sir!" I chirped

I hung up and moved to Rain room taking one of his shirt and walking back to my room so I could get ready for school. I didn't want to go but I have to if I want to become a professional artist and dancer. I have a studio in the basement and I will change my parents old room into my art studio and not in the attic where they put me. I walked to the attic to finish the piece of Rain I was doing, it's going to be a gift for him when he gets home but he said he going to be on the first flight home but who knows when they are going to let him come home from Tokyo so I finished my painting going to my room.

I got into bed like I normal do and sighed it was going to be long time before Rain gets home.

The next morning I got up groggy only because I didn't get much sleep I was use to hearing noise from my parents having them gone for good is weird. Some teens would be thrilled but when your a kid like me with so many fears and when it comes to being alone in really quiet places is scary because you don't know what can happen to you at all. I got dressed in khaki pants and a orange shirt with remind me of a Popeyes worker but I don't say anything. I head down stairs to grab my bag but I noticed a bigger envelope sitting in the counter, I didn't get the mail this morning mom must have dropped them off last night so I wasn't complaining but she can't come in here like this anymore she and dad made it clear they want nothing to do with me or Rain. I grab a banana and head out the door for school, I walk to the bus stop and tugged my best friends arm signaling I was here and ready for school. My best friend name is Rio and he isn't Hispanic not Mexican he's really like really white.

"Hey Alex!" He smiled

"Hi Rio, wanna come over later there something I need to tell you" I looked at him.

"Sure there something I need to tell you too" he sounded sad but whatever it is he'll be fine right?

Rio is your run of the mill typical white guy, he has eyes that changes colors with the seasons and he tall! He is five foot seven with great hair! He lets me play in it from time to time when he not with his girl friend Bailey but she a whore and I know she was cheating on Rio with his brother which is wrong he even brought he lace underwear to spice up whatever going on in the bed room. I never questioned him because his girl friend looks to much like me and we have the same body type at that! Boys say it's should be illegal for me to have an hour glass figure and look good and better than any girl would have. People say I've turned there boyfriends bisexual or even gay but how when I never been with them!

"Hey Alex I was coming over yesterday and I saw your parents leaving then this morning I saw your mom drop something off what is that all about?" Rio questioned me, he was really smart for a junior but I was smarter I was taking senior classes in my eleventh grade year.

"Her and my father Abandon me and Rain because I wasn't like him and no boy should be able to paint and or dance let along have a girl body type" I explained

"That shouldn't give them a reason to leave their seventeen year old son all alone for a year till his bother gets back from deployment!" Rio was streaming mad but I didn't say anything because I knew he was right

"Rain said he going to be on the first flight home when he talks to his commander" I roll my eyes at the boy in front of me

Sometimes I wonder why I'm friends with Rio but sometimes I can't forget he was the first person to tell me he would bang if he wasn't straight. I didn't completely understand what he meant about banging not did I question it because I was either going to be confused or flushed after him trying to explain to me.

The school bus finally came and we all boarded not really wanting to be going to school at seven in the morning but who could really complain when we all want to do something to change the world in some way but I can't change the world by painting and dancing like misty Copeland did but I can sure try! I sat next to Rio like normal but I was soon pushed to the floor by his nasty cheating girl friend Bailey. That girl had more STDs and AIDs than you could swim the ocean.

"Bailey what the hell was that for? he was sitting there first! You can't just shove him out of the way!" Rio yelled at her

"It's fine Rio she can have the seat she looks like something was eating her alive anyways it can't be the sexually transmitted diseases she got." I tell Rio

She growled at me but Rio pulled me into his lap growling back at her, I was so confused on what was going to on, why was they growling at each other. She sat next to as and I was staddling Rio watch wasn't new for us when she wants to be a dick to me. Rio is hold my ass which is weird for me so I grabbed his hand as placed it on my waist and looked out the window but then I fault something poke my butt and it was sharp causing me to jump.

"Bailey what the hell! Why did you poke him with your comb!" Rio turned to her

"Wanted to see if it was real and it is" she smiled

"Of course his ass is real! He not a girl to get butt Implants!" He huffed

"Why was you holding his ass anyways Rio you could always hold my ass and breast" she purred

"I don't think he wants too, he could catch an infection if he does" I simple say before getting off the bus

"You Bitch!" She yelled

"That's not my job honey that's yours!" I smile

I walk inside the school and head straight to my locker but to find a bunch of boys standing there either holding flowers or chocolates. I was shocked because I thought the rumors was fake but they was true! I stare wide eyed and Rio catch up to me chuckling.

"They finally had the balls to ask you out god I was getting sick of telling them how to get your Damn attention I mean Damn Alex you really can turn straight guys bisexual and gay" he panted and I blushed

"I didn't mean to! I swear!" I looked at him and started to walk to my locker

"Dude you have guys lined up for you! That's every gay guys dream! And a girls dream" he chuckles "and sorry but my hands are tied"

"It's fine you didn't mean it but it's not the first time you put your hand on my ass" I explained and smiled at the boys

"Hi Alex I was wondering if you want to go on a date with me this Friday? I mean you could go with all of us to get it out of the way so you don't over book" Shawn asked

"Um sure you all can come by my house Friday but umm I can't carry all of this stuff you guys brought me at all" I blush deep

"Here I came prepared" Rio chuckles and pulls out a duffle bag

I watch them put the flowers and candy into the bag and leave their numbers before going to class, I guess Rio gave them mines so I grab my books for the day and walk to class. I had senior classes while Rio had junior classes. I walk to class humming softly I sit down and place my books down and turn my phone off but before I did I seen a message from Rain.

Rain: hey, I'll be home in four hours so be good and no boys!

Me: can't promise the no boys thing Rain like 5 boys asked me out this Friday, can they come over please?

Rain: fine, but stay in the living room.

Me: ok I will!

I smiled and texted Rio the plans with Rain and when he coming home. I went through out the day humming and eating chocolate. By lunch I was bouncing off the walls due to the candy I had I spotted Rio at lunch and ran to him giggling.

"Rio he coming home today!" I smiled

"You are having a sugar rush and he going to kill me for letting you" he smiled

"No he not silly I won't let him" I giggled and started to eat my lunch.

After a while a girl came up to me holding a rose but I was confused why she was giving them to me. I took it then a line of people was holding them. I took them and followed the line to see my brother standing at the end of the hallway causing me to drop the flowers and cry.

"Rain! You said you wasn't going to be home for anything four hours!" I sobbed

"I know and I'm sorry but I got home right after I texted you" he held me as I cried

I held onto him hard and people know my brother was in the military because loved helping people and I never thought they would help pull this off. I wiped my face sniffing as I looked at him before crying again.

"I missed you so much!" He said While picking me up "I signed you and Rio out for the day, I'm surprisingly his number one person to call"

"Yea sorry about that my mom trust you more then she trust my father" Rio said holding our stuff

He chuckles while leading us out the school for the rest of the day. I notice Rios girl friend eyeing my brother so before I left went up to her.

"Stop eyeing something you can't have you stank ass Bitch" I told her earning laughter from Rain and Rio

"Damn Alex I never heard you curse before" Rio said still laughing

"That's because I don't like to and she always hitting on people behind your back, she even slept with our ninth grade math teacher for a better grade" I told him

"I heard about that never knew it was true, I brought her something but I wonder if she been cheating on me since the time we got together. If she had then I can give what I brought for her to you" he smiled before winking

"God I hope you didn't turn the male population in your school gay" Rain sighed

"No that would be bad like really bad" I said getting into Rains car

"So Alex, me and Bailey's anniversary is coming up! We have been together for nearly three years!" He smiled

"And she been cheating for all three years" I mumble

"Hey be nice" Rain said

I huff and let Rain drive us home I yawn and lean back but I felt something being stuffed into my pocket so I turned to Rio as he smiled softly to me. I pulled out my phone and texted him.

Me: are you ok?

Rio: no, Bailey just texted me to tell me she was cheating on my our whole relationship

Me: sorry Rio but I kinda figured since she is a walking STD she was using you to get to your brother, I tried to tell you but your brother told me not to tell you because she was a good lay and he was going to knock her up.

Rio: I wish I would have know then I wouldn't have brought her those panties I shoved into your pocket your her size so I'm giving them to you. Plus she did tell me she was pregnant but she claims it was my baby. I didn't believe her only because we didn't have sex at all. She was going to be my first and sex is intercourse between two people, I'm going to show you porn.

Me: please don't Rain would kill me and I don't know if I get turned on easily but I don't even know what turned on feels like.

Rio: you poor boy! I'm going to show you what turned on feels like but got are going to have to figure out how to get rid of the Boner once I give it to you.

I blush while hiding my phone from Rain because I know he was going to be asking question of what's got me so blushly so I wasn't going to tell him that Rio was going to give me something I never had before. I notice we was almost home and I squealed when I saw that there was a moving truck in front of the house.

"I'm not going on deployment anymore because I have to take care of you now and I have to open that package mom left but I can't tell you turn eighteen which is in two months and return all of my shirts that you took from me please I would like to have clothes too." He said parking and going to help the moving people

I grab my stuff and Rios hand before running to my room blushing hard because the look on his face tells me he was serious about helping me feel what turned on meant. I close my door and locked it before locked the bathroom door and closing the curtains. I felt Rio grab my waist and start to kiss my neck causing me to whimper grip the curtains really tight. I let them go as he moved up and down my neck as I slowly turned around as I wrapped my arms around his neck as he placed his hands on my ass.

"W-wait why does this feel so good?"I asked panting

"Don't know but I can make this worth it" Rio said

"Please? I want to feel weird in my pants" I gasp as he slapped my ass

"You have a Boner bunny" he growled

"Fix it then!" I grabbed his face kissing him

He picked me up and dropped me on the bed before kissing me back and started to undo my pants but we didn't get far because Rain unlocked the door and walking in.

"Alex why is the do-oh my god!" He screamed

Me and Rio pulled away causing me to blush really deep, we was both supporting boners and panting really hard but it wasn't our fault that it felt really good to make each other feel like that.

"Um I'm going to the bathroom" Rio stated before leaving the room.

"I just walked in on you get it on with your best friend, look next time put a sock in the door" he chuckles while leaving

I nodded while blushing and Rio comes back also blushing and looked at me.

"So what did your bother say?" Rio asked

"Put a sock on the door" I giggled and got up and grabbed a sock of my foot and placed it on the door while looking at Rio.

"Wanna continue?" I asked Rio

He nodded and I walked to him kissing him again, he pulled me close while placing his hands on my ass giving it a great big squeeze causing me to moan into his month. He flipped us while looking at me kissing to my neck and slowly removed my shirt and pants Leaving me in my boxers. I removed his clothes to and pushed my hips into his making him groan loud, I giggled while looking at him.

"Don't be so loud or Rain will come back" I said before pushing my crotch into him

"Sorry" he said while pushing into me.

I moaned and he flipped me onto my stomach pushing into me causing me to moan. Rio pulled my boxers down and licking my hole, I moan loud and I hide my face into the pillow as I pushed back into him.

"Don't you dare fuck him!" Rain yelled causing us to pull away from each other and blushed really hard

"Rain he wasn't going to! I don't even know what that is!" I scream panting

Rio mumbles something and he sits on the bed before looking at me. He pulled me close while pulling my boxers of and licked the tip of my member causing me to gasp loud and place my hands on his head. He sucked on the head and pushed me deep into his throat, I started to shake really hard as I cum really hard and grip Rios head holding him still. He came up panting looking at me as he chuckled at me.

"I can't believe you just did that" I was breathless while looking at my best friend

"I know how to make people got breathless" he chuckles laughing next to me

"I'm sorry that Bailey cheated on you for three years" I looked at Rio

"It's fine" he said while grabbing his stuff

"Your Leaving?" I sat up pouting

"Um I have something to tell you" he says

"Go on" I edged

"Um I'm moving tomorrow and I really like really like you" he said before rushing out

I was Shocked and put my clothes on Before following him but Rain caught me so as Rio ran out the door. I screamed after him and struggled to get to my bestfriend. I stop and started to cry because this was all Bailey fault that I lost him if she never been a fucking whore! I hit on Rain chest while crying.

"Ssh he told me before leaving the real reason he was moving its not your fault but mom and dad's" he said

"What? Rio was never my friend?" I asked

"No, he wasn't mom told him to be your friend because she hated you being alone even if it was her fault you hate being alone"

I gasp and yelled at the top of my lungs while running to my room slamming the door crying really hard and hid under my blanket balling my eyes out because now I actually don't have real friends but my mom had to make me have fake friends. I hear Rain come in and holds me close as I cried.

"Why can't i make real friends? Why does she have to make everything harder for me? First she said she hates me because I don't like the military" I hiccup

"It's fine so your own thing don't follow in my foot steps ok" he told me "I cleaned mom and dad room and moved your art stuff into there ok" he smiled

"I have something for you!" I get up and grab the painting of the easel and run back to my room while holding out

He looked at me while chuckling at me and took the painting but he was shocked at the painting.

"Is this me?" He asked while turning red

"Yea it was your coming home present" i smile

I watched him start to blush and i giggled he started to cry as he placed it on the bed and hugged me tight.

"Thank you! God I love you" he said sniffing "your the best baby brother someone could ever have"

"Your the best big brother anyone could have" I smile at him

"Come on lets eat dinner and then we can talk about your birthday celebration" he said taking the picture to his room.

I walked down stairs and hummed softly before getting the urge to dance and i run straight to the basement letting out my energy doing a while dance I found in the internet by one of my favorite choreographers and doing a little of the bts DNA dance causing me to break a sweat.

"Alex! Where did you go! Dinners ready now come and eat!" Rain called from the kitchen

I ran up stairs sweating really bad but Rain just laughed at me. I sat down and eat dinner with my brother before going to shower. After I showered I found the pink lace panties Rio left me.

I put them on before going down stairs. I feel my brother staring at me  as I  dances around in one of his  shirts that I stole from him while he was way on deployment. When he first arrived home my parents had completely left me all by myself which wasn't health to leave a seventeen year old alone with my mindset which was the pure innocent mind of a toddler. Now back to my main problem my brother was wearing still wearing his uniform while me in his shirt with a pair of lace panties that Rio gave to me.

"Alex who brought you those panties?" He asked while leaning on the counter starting at me

He stood at five foot eleven mean while I stood at five foot even which I  found hell. He watched me as I turn to him blushing softly biting my lip before giving him an answer. He become my legal parent after my parents went MIA after he left for his first Deployment which was over a year ago.

"Um my f-friend order them for his girlfriend as a g-gift but she never wore them because the day he gave them to her" I  paused and nibbled my lip once again "she confessed to cheating all their relationship so he gave them to me because I was the only one in her size" I  whimpered

"Ok" he smiled and chucked "we can buy you more of you like them and if you like girls clothes more then boys we can give you a whole new closet" he explained

I looked at him causing my face to light up but soon blushed deep trying to hide the fact i was wearing girl underwear which was kind of embarrassing. He walked to me before pulling my shirt up and hummed softly as he started at my bottom.

"Mom did do you right I see why Rio was all over you today, your either the quiet type either" he said "Brian owns me fifteen"

"You betted on me! You weirdo!" I pushed him and pouted

"Sorry kid but it was to see if your a loud one or a quiet one which I was right!" He smiled

I huffed and left the Room before going down Stairs to get my backpack and going to do my homework in my bedroom sighed. I hated to believe Rio was only my friend because of my mother and he acted like he wanted to be with a kid who scared of big dogs and bring alone, blood, loud noises. Sometimes I didn't want to be with myself because I can shower myself in negative thoughts. If I was Rio I would fake being friends with me to just so I won't be lonely, he was the one to tell me to tug his arm when I get to the bus stop and I was the one who repeatedly told him that Bailey was cheating on him but I guess that's what I get for being friends with a fake person. I get up and start to take all the stuff he brought me over the years and tossed them out.

"Oh god I have that date in Friday with those boys!" I sighed and ran inside "Rain! I need your help!" I scream

"What?" He asked getting off the couch

"Remember that date I have with those five boys? Well can you cook us dinner please?" I asked

"Um Alex have to know something, Rio lied to you, those boys are not really into you" he sighed

"He really didn't like me did he?" I asked

"Sorry cupcake he didn't" he looked at me

I pulled my phone out texting Rio who name I changed in my phone.

Me: I can't believe you made me think I turned those boys bisexual and gay what kind of sick person are you! First you lie about being my friend then this don't ever think you can come and apologize after this, you can burn in hell for this Rio if that's even your real name!

Fake Bitch: I'm sorry that I lied to you for four years straight I wanted to tell you that your mom put me up to it she was even paying me to be your friend but after time I actually started to think what mother would do some sick shit like this paying some freshmen to be this sweet boys friend. But when you started to sit on my lap I had to self control because that ass should be illegal! But um yea I hope you understand.

Me: I guess but why wait till you finished doing what you did to run out and tell me that you was being paid! I feel sick to my stomach that I felt like I did something wrong! You left with a Boner!

Half fake Bitch: Yea and my brother laugh at me when I came home with a boner, he also came how from deployment his name is Brian

Me: he owns my brother fifteen bucks, they bet on me saying I was either quiet or loud, which I don't get

Rio: loud means you are really vocal when doing what we did earlier and quiet means you don't Make any noise. And my brother is disappointed in me when he found out I was being paid to be your friend which I'm truly sorry about please forgive me. And you actually did turn them bisexual and gay.

Me: I'm working on forgiving you if you take me to where your brought those pink panties from i like how they feel against my skin.

Rio: I brought them at a sex shop and holy shit are you wearing them right now? Can I see or is that too far? I know I gave them to you but I never thought you would actually wear them! That is such a huge turn on a big one for me

Me: Rio I didn't wear them for you they happen to be the first thing I grabbed when I was going to shower now drop it

Rio: Sorry

I sigh and didn't answer back because there was a knock on the front door. I walked over to it as found a tall man he was like people call sex on legs but I can't hardly believe that because I never had sex before.

"Are you Alex?" He asked

"Yea you must be Brian" I let him in

"Mhm I hard what my dick head of a brother did to you, I came to say he is deeply sorry and would like you to forgive him." He sighed

"I'm trying to, Rain is in the living room" I closed the door before leading Brian to the Living room

"Hey man! Here your fifteen since you won" he handed him over fifteen grand

"You dick bet fifteen grand on me!" I glare

I watch them nodded and watch the game as I did home work. This was going to be a long night.