1 How i began to give up

I'm staring into the abbyss of my life,I'm sitting on the edge literally.

I don't know what else is left except this.

Everyone I come near gets ruined,I'm a wrecking ball.

How much pain I have caused,I'm not worthy to live.

I deserve what happened to me,I welcome my end.

She left and it's good she won't see me like this.

I've not been close to Allah for an age.

Why should he forgive me?

So as I watch the bustle of concerned people scattered like ants at the feet of this lofty building.

I care not as I'm about to meet my end.

"noooooo eliyas don't I'm here"

And that's where I ended.

I'm gonna kill my pain tomorrow and I don't want to remember since I got myself into this.

First I ruin my business without a cause,I sold it to an evil criminal,we make defence weapons for middle east and I sold it to an American firm.

I kissed hawnas best friend to hurt her.

I shouted at my mother,telling her dad was a worthless gangster,she never knew.