17 Mad and In Love with you

Time - 10:00 PM

Lillian and Lucy returned to their hotel room after dinner. Lucy went directly to the bedroom, took a shower, and changed her clothes. Lillian could see the tension in her movements. She didn't utter a word to Lillian and went straight to bed.

Lillian Grey sighed,

"Now, you're mad at me after experiencing one of the best dates ever in your life?" she followed her to the bed and tried to reason out with her.

Lucy did not answer and remained silent.

"Why aren't you answering me?" Lillian insisted.

"Why?" Lucy scoffed.

You never responded to me, and you went ahead to order the fucking desserts, right?"

"Why expect an answer from me now?" Lucy's anger reflected in her voice.

"Is this about knowing all of me?"

"If that is your problem, then here, let me give you an answer right now when I'm alone with you."

"I don't want to talk about my past. I will never talk about it ever in my life again. Why? Because I don't want to feel being fucked up like that." Lillian's frustration and her anger channeled together. She approached Lucy, who's lying down on the bed and gripped her by the collar. Lucy yelped from the sudden move, meeting her face to face, she could notice flaring frustration in her girlfriend's eyes. She had never seen Lillian like this before. With each second passing by, her grip tightened.

She tried to defend herself, but Lillian's strength dominated the poor Lucy. She felt weak and vulnerable. Lillian kept staring at her eyes with an intense gaze. She said, "If I'm given a chance, to destroy someone in my life, it would be the past me."

Lucy feared the person holding her right now.

"You want to know why? Because I'd rather kill my past self than see the pathetic me being fucked up by someone I cherished more than myself."

Finishing her blow, she loosened her grip on Lucy. Lillian had never been this harsh to Lucy before.

Lucy felt miserable, seeing the usual charming Lillian Grey in this state.

It became silent at once, Lillian sat on the edge of the bed, next to Lucy.

After treating Lucy so harsh, Lillian thought that this relationship is going to end as well. However, to her surprise, she felt two hands wrapping around her torso and pulling her into a hug.

"I'm sorry. I don't get what you're saying. But I'm truly sorry. I will never ask about your past again, Lilly. Please calm down. Please. Please. Please." Lucy kept repeating 'please' again and again; meaning to comfort Lillian, but, it was to calm both of them. One who's filled with rage and another filled with fear.

"It doesn't matter if you got fucked up or not. I still love you, Lilly. And I'm the fool to start a pointless conversation like this." She kept comforting her until Lillian had calmed down.

Lucy let go of the hug to face her. Lillian had teary eyes, all that dominant strength vanished, and she became lifeless.

Seeing her girlfriend in distress, saddened Lucy.

She could see Lillian in pain; Her tears never fell but lingered there, refusing to go down, just like her misery. The only thing Lucy can do now is to heal her. She brought her face closer to Lillian's and kissed her tender lips. She embraced her gently around her arms and pulled her to bed. Lillian's expression changed from 'being left out' into 'being with the loved one.'

The girl in front of her loved her truly and understood her emotions.

The girl in front of her is trying to heal her heart.

The girl in front of her that she liked.

The girl in front of her was Lucy.

All of the frustration she felt, slowly withered from her mind and body.

Lillian responded to her kiss. This time it was intense as if she wanted to zeal those lips.

"This wasn't the climax that I'd initially planned," Lillian spoke softly.

"It's alright. We can still make love. I don't care about the old Lillian. I fell in love with the best writer, Ms. Lillian Grey. That's enough for me. You still are my one and only Lillian Grey." Lucy confessed.

"I'm sorry, Lucy," Lillian confessed.

"Hmm... I know. I know." Lucy wrapped herself with Lillian in bed.

***

That night, they embraced each other; declared their love for each other and made love to each other. One can say how lucky Lillian can be.

It was almost dawn, and Lucy fell asleep next to Lillian who's still awake. She kept staring the ceiling as she gently stroked Lucy's hair. Her naked skin brushed against one another, tempting Lillian to once again softly mark Lucy's bare skin.

Without waking her up, Lillian Grey whispered into her ear,

"I can never tell you about my past Lucy. I don't want to feel that pain again. I finally moved on. At least that's what I think. But now that I know you're here with me, I think I can move on completely."

Confessing to her sleeping girlfriend, Lillian caressed the place she just marked.

Suddenly the mobile phone buzzed, it was Lillian's. She stretched her hand to grab it.

It was a text message from Jenna. She got reminded of her replies from early morning; Jenna must be worried. She opened the inbox to read.

Jenna: 2:00 AM

Ms. Grey, I found her. Ms. Giselle has returned, and she's living with her daughter. There's going to be a welcoming party this weekend.

Lillian's eyes widened after reading the message, although she kept receiving follow-ups from Jenna.

Jenna: 2:02 AM

I was with Mrs. Anna, and that's how I found out about this. It seems that she had received an invitation from Ms. Giselle herself.

Jenna: 2:03 AM

Should I follow her, Ms. Grey? We finally got some lead on this lady. Let me know.

Jenna: 2:04 AM

Oops, I'm sorry for disturbing you. It's just that- I always felt sad that I wasn't able to find out anything related to this person. Now that I heard about her, I couldn't stay silent. It felt as if she is someone important to you. However, I will call you later, Ms. Grey- to talk about this in detail. Text me when you're free.