21 Chapter 20

Carla's POV

Running helped me feel free. I ran as a human, being the wolf made me feel more like a monster. When I ran it made me feel more connected to Eclipse too. I had been away from my friends for two weeks and I truly missed them. What would they think if I just walked into camp like nothing happened, like I hadn't been gone for half a month? Are they even still alive? I felt terrible for leaving. I shouldn't have left without telling them how much I loved them. I wanted to explain to them why I left. It was to save them. I couldn't bring myself to tell them, I can't imagine how they're feeling, how Carter is feeling.

I continued to run up the beach, Eclipse was running beside me. We had gotten closer the past week and a half. Running helped me remember who I was, who I was before this big mess of drama. Before Valerie, before the Commander. Feeling the warm sand kick up behind me while I ran somehow soothed my nerves. I knew that this was for the best. It would be over soon and then everything can go back to normal.

I could lie and say I didn't miss my friends, but I did. I missed them a lot. I was so ashamed of who I turned into. Who I was before, that wasn't me. I wouldn't break someone's wrist or skull for that matter. I wouldn't kill someone. What have I turned into? A monster? A murderer? Something more atrocious? I feel like a monster. I had to become a monster, if I didnt than everyone would surely be dead.

They probably thought I was running from my problems. I was always told not to run from my problems but was that even what I was doing?

I wasn't running from my problems, I was running from who I am, who I was, what I've done, what I've become. I was running to save everyone. I had defended my actions by saying that I was protecting myself, protecting my friends. Was I really? I killed a person. I killed several. Nobody pointed it out. The person who did got their wrist snapped.

Who had I become?

Was I ever going to be myself again?

A snake that sheds its skin is still a snake isn't it?

It would be over soon.

I ran faster.

Monster.

Murderer.

My thoughts ran faster than I did.

Demon.

I instantly stopped and turned towards the wind, towards the south. A large black wolf approached through the forest. Its eyes narrowed at me and picked up its pace. I had been waiting for her to find me.

The hair on Eclipse stood on end, he took a step forward and I let out a low growl. I had no idea what I told him to do but he instantly stood down and walked behind me. This wasn't a fight for him.

I knew exactly who this wolf was. I wasn't going to let her get away this time. For once I had the upper hand.

I started sprinting towards the black wolf. Valerie was going to regret following me here. I took a leap into the air, I pulled my sword out of my back holster and slammed it into the back of the black wolf. She had not jumped at the same time I did so I ended up landing on her. My sword had penetrated her back, the loud crack indicated that I had shattered at least one of her ribs. I rolled onto the sand and quickly spun around to catch her counter attack. She swatted at me with one of her paws.

Valerie thought she had the upper hand while she was in wolf form, she was wrong.

I dodged the large paw and used my fire power to launch a flaming ball into her chest. Her whimper was quickly pushed aside and she went in to bite me. I used the super strength to punch her as hard as possible in the jaw. She didn't even flinch and countered my attack by swinging her paw down to knock me down. I fell sideways. She grabbed my leg in her jaws and threw me into the treeline.

I had one option, I had been waiting for the right time to use.

This fight didn't call for a warrior of the pack, it called for the queen. And Valerie was going to pay for hurting my family. This was going to end today.