4 Chapter4: yah neh

{May the light find you the way the darkness finds you}~k-julka

Today I woke up before my alarm went off,because I was nervous about the day ahead. I am worried that I won't be able to make friends or probably fit in, or maybe be able to be myself in a new environment. Therefore I made sure I woke up early to get myself ready in time so that I can be in my thoughts alone,while I wait for my aunt to get ready. I tied my hair up in a cute messy bun and neatly brushed my hairline. I am not in the mood to lay my edges today. I looked horrible in this uniform. The worst part is my skirt was way too long. My mom would call me "bundle of joy"(smh). I had a mini anxiety attack, but I tried to keep myself calm. Since all my things were organized, I decided to eat breakfast. While I was eating breakfast Ray(I sometimes call him by his middle name) FaceTimed me. His cute face appeared on the screen, and I couldn't help but smile. "Hey cutie, how are you feeling"said Ray.

Me- "I'm doing okay I guess,I'm just nervous ?

Ray- "no we're not doing that, you are going to be great,just be yourself. It really sucks that you left me here, but unfortunately it is what it is. I love you for you and everything that you do and I bet they gonna love you too."

His words were heart melting and made me calm down a bit. He still calls me everyday , even though we're not together anymore but we act like we are. It bothers me sometimes, because he has a girlfriend. I can be stupid sometimes. Am I a side chick..?(smh) sad I know.

So my aunt woke up and got ready. After she was done we took all my luggage to the car, she said she'll drop them at the hostel in my room. I still haven't seen my room. I hope it's cute and complements my bed sheets and that there's enough space for me to put my belongings.

She said she'll drop me off at school first then leave my things at the boarding place. When we got there the first thing you noticed is that the school is tastefully landscaped. My nerves were slowly getting reduced.

My aunt accompanied me to the office where I had to be formally registered and allocated to my class. They gave me my timetables and I was legit a Mayllur High student. I followed the teacher who was showing me my class. While we were walking to the class everyone was looking out the windows to see the new girl. I really felt so uncomfortable and I just wanted to hide or go back home. When I headed to the class I was allocated to , the class was noisy and it was such a mess. When I immediately stepped inside the class everyone just turned and looked at me, I don't know if they were surprised to see me or they just kept quiet because the teacher was behind me. The teacher Mrs Smit introduced me to the class and made me sit down next to this girl who was super quiet ,she didn't even look at me. I felt so out of place I just wanted to disappear. I looked around and i thought to myself that these don't look like the people I would normally hang out with or be friends with. I know that I'm quick to judge and don't even have an hour here, but it's obvious that these people are not exactly my people. I decided to lay my head down a bit and I immediately dozed off until a large hand grabbed me and....