19 Chapter 19: time to move on.

(I've been watching you for some time and my heart burns for you)~ unknown

I am back in this serene place. Although I'm not really thrilled about coming back here. The rippling ocean was something I was drawn to but never had time to come and enjoy it. This time I decided to come alone. I told my mother that I can take care of myself and I know how to get to my aunts house by myself. Also the trip to Cape Town was quite therapeutic. It was just me and my thoughts in that plane. I thought about how I am going to change my ways and become a better version of myself. Leave the past in the past and just enjoy the present. I understand that I will not always be happy and I should enjoy the moments when I am happy. I should also let myself cry once in a while, I am allowed to be sad. The highs and lows do not define me but make me a better me. I've been through a lot and that shouldn't stop me from living my life. I am not someone who cries a lot unless I'm in a lot of pain. I convince myself that I am fine and I sometimes push the people closest to me away. All that is gonna change from now on.

I arrived to my aunts house and everyone looked quite happy to see me. I enjoyed the positive energy they gave off. It was quite satisfying and just made me feel at peace. We had lunch and I decided to take a walk to the beach alone. I listened to music while walking, it gives me a fulfilling mood like I'm in my own music video , or like I'm the main character in a movie and there's a playlist that goes well with the storyline.

While walking I bump into this tall guy.

"Careful.." he stared at me for a while, which was without a doubt uncomfortable. I liked his height and his confidence but he seemed a little too cocky, which is a red flag for me. Also i am not looking for any type of relationship.

"Ugh leave me alone please" I walked away. He looks familiar though. I feel like I've seen him somewhere before.

"Wait aren't you that new cute girl from school?"

"No! Leave me alone." I quickly walked away.

I looked for a nice spot to watch the sunset. I went through Instagram and I came across Brysons account. He was all "booed up" with his ex and now recent girlfriend, worst part is his caption was:" I had to go through all that just to find the one again, it was all worth it<3"

I felt my heart drop to my stomach. He already moved on so fast. Despite the allegations that he is my half brother which I think is all lies, because my mother is a lying witch.

You know what I will not let this break me any further than it already has. Bryson is no longer a part of my life and I will be happy and I will move on from this. Tomorrow I'm starting school and I am going back to hostel. I am really excited and I just want to forget about everything, but I am also a little skeptical because my body has been through too much trauma, it doesn't really look them same and honestly I do not want to come across someone who will ask me questions in the showers. Despite all that I am excited and a bit reserved because that school is horrible.

The next morning I wake up early ,ready to go to school. My aunt is going to drop me off at the school with my things.

We first leave my belongings at my boarding room and then she drops me off at the school grounds. People are staring again, I am completely annoyed because I've been through this before. It feels like my first day at school again. Today was a bit different because it was two weeks before valentines so people were a bit excited and looking forward to the valentine bash. Valentine bash is a social event they do here at this school. We all dress up for valentine and you get to confess your feelings to your crush, or buy your significant other a cute gift. The school brings a celebrity guest (normally musicians) to come and entertain us. There is also a pageant for Mr and Mrs valentines. I don't why everybody is obsessing over valentines. I used to love this holiday but I think it's stupid now because people only love you during valentines season and after that you are forgotten.

I quickly walked to my register class so I could put my bags and walk to assembly. I ran into my friend Kylie. She looked so thrilled to see me and I was glad to actually have a real friend in this school.

After assembly I went to the receptionist and I found out that they changed my classes. I was excited because the last class I was in I didn't connect with any of them. Lucky they put me in the same classes as Kylie. I sat with her and we became so close. The people in my recent class are really smart and quite intimidating. So it was hard blending in because they have all formed friend groups and them having to let someone new in was not an option. I kinda understood them because it was hard letting new people in.

My classmates started to be welcoming and that's when I met Megan. She was over the top and another version of myself that I decided to hide from classmates. She was cute and had a cute Afro on and braces. She was really popular and a people's person. I liked that about her. She is different from Kylie. Kylie is more reserved and calm, although she can be a little wild sometimes. I feel like a two year old when I'm around her. These two are my only real friends. I am myself when I'm around them. The only things is they are both two different people and I have to hang out with them at different times which is frustrating, because then the other feels neglected. So since Kylie stays with me at hostel I decided to hang out with her at hostel and Megan at school. Kylie then changed classes so we also had limited time together at school. So I sat with Megan in all my classes.

"Kayla valentines is coming and I have nothing to wear" Megan was always talking in class. There was never a dull moment when she was around and I'm not gonna lie I enjoyed her overly expressive personality.

"Oh that ,I forgot about that." I wasn't really interested about valentines.

"Kayla come on just show a little bit of excitement for me. Also I've entered the valentines pageant." She looked excited.

"Whatever I'm not really thrilled about Valentine's Day. Also I don't like anyone and no one likes me so I'm cool with that."

"Are you sure no one likes you.?" I could see that mischievous smile and I suddenly knew she was up to something."

"No no whatever you are up to I do not want to be a part of it."

"Kayla stop being so boring. So there's a guy who really likes you. And he has been paying me to get you to talk to him."

"Uhm no, first of all he is a coward. Why doesn't he come himself to talk to me, I like a confident guy you know, not too cocky though. Also I'm not looking."

"No listen he tried to come but you shut him down. He is a nice guy and he has money." Megan had this weird grin on herI couldn't help but laugh at her."

"Haha which guy now? Most guys approach you and not me so I don't know which one you are taking about."

"The reason they approach me more than you is because you look like a bitch. No offense my friend but you have this intimidating look sometimes it freaks people out. It makes you look mean."

"What! I'm such a sweetheart. People are just weird."

"Whatever you say but can you give the guy a chance. It's that one who always stands near the tuck shop."

"Oh you mean that arrogant boy. No thank you he is not my type."

"But he is tall and has money."

"Megan no I'm not that desperate to have a valentines date. Plus I'm just not ready to be in a new relationship yet." I told Megan about Bryson but I didn't tell her about the baby and that he might be my brother.

"That is the reason to help you move on it's been a while. Anyway you are talking to him because I've been buying you lunch for the whole week and that's all his money. So you don't have any choice ma'am."

"Ugh whatever it's fine I'll turn him down anyways" I rolled my eyes.

The day kept dragging itself. It eventually became break time. Megan then quickly pulls me out of class. I am too tired for this.

"Its time Matthews. Let's go buy food with his money again." She gave a little wink and chuckled. Also I hated that people in this school called me by my surname. She knows that too.

We then walked to the tuck shop and bought food. Today he wasn't standing near the tuck shop. I was so relieved that I won't have to go through all that. I was waiting for Megan to buy drinks so we can go back to class. The usual Megan was taking her time.

I then felt a hand on my shoulder....