1 Prologue + Chapter One

Its been Ten years, ten years if me hurting, ten years of me longing for warmth.

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*Hope*

My name is Hope, its ironic really. I hold no hope and I don't think I ever will. My anxiety and depression consume me. They are big waves and I'm drowning in them.

I can't resurface back to the top even if I use all my strength. My body aches and I feel weak, I regret jumping in and I feel my tears mingling in with the salty water. I scream as the water drown my lungs. I cry thinking about my mother, and my siblings. I wonder how they will react to the news of my death.

I kick my legs frantically, its funny. I thought I wanted this, I was choosing the easy way out and I felt like a coward. I wondered if I was really going to join my father. His death effected me, and now I was wondering if mine was going to effect the ones I love.

With that final thought and the burning sensation in my lungs, my lids began to close and I started to lose consciousness but not before I felt a pair of arms clasping around me.