14 My Decision

My secrets...

The three of us finally found a fun place to talk.

Antoni immediately went to the cashier to order drinks and snacks for us.

I saw Oman's face was a bit confused, who knows what he actually covered from me.

"Oman, how are you mom ...?

"Are you still looking for me ..?

I also started a conversation with Oman, because my curiosity could not be resisted anymore.

"Anjani ... I don't want to interfere ... and pretend to advise you ..!"

"I just hope you just go home, your mom only has you ... if you go then your father goes, you talk alone ..."

Oman said very seriously to me, making my chest beat faster because I felt to be very guilty to mama.

"But Oman ... since I left, at least daddy is beside my mom ...The proof is they are both looking for myself together .. "

I answered Oman in a soft, low voice.

"That's what I mean! I already said, I didn't want to interfere, it's your business ... Earlier I said to you, this is just my wish Anjaniii .. "

Oman answered with a very empty face.

I saw Antoni had returned to us from ordering drinks and snacks.

"It's suitable place, can chat comfortably here" Antoni sat beside me and said to us.

"Antoni, if you really love Anjani ....Tell him to go home to his house .. don't even keep him in your house ... because you two are not officially married!"

Suddenly Oman said to Antoni, suddenly I was surprised to hear the words spoken by Oman to Antoni, making Antoni immediately turned to me. and answer Oman.

"Oman, it's not like I don't want to tell him to go home, but from yesterday he didn't say anything to me at all, and I also didn't force him to tell him about my problem. Because I know and believe, Anjani knows which one is the best for her and which is not good for her. Precisely because I love him, I told him to stay at my house, so it's clear that if there is anything you can find him at my house. I have been given the same permission as my father's father about Anjani, and they know ... who is Anjani to me ".

With his relaxed style, Antoni also answered and told everything to Oman. Here finally Antoni became aware of the secret and why I left home.

"Oman, I don't want to go home if I still see dad and mom haven't changed!"

I know my method is wrong, but I don't know what else to do, my ears are confusing if I have to listen to my father's temper and get angry and I can only cry ... Feelings are confused if I see my mother shut up in confusion room, I don't want to be like that ... "I told Oman.

Actually, I just needed time so that I could think calmly because soon I had to face the final school exams.

I have to think about my future.

To stay at Antoni's house too, to be honest I also don't want to, if all of this I wasn't forced to, I only needed 2 weeks to be with him.

After the school exams I have to leave Antoni's house.

I still have my dreams and dreams. I'm still young and my way is still long. I don't want my life to be fixed like a faithful candle in Antoni's house.

"Anjani is all back to you, because you are the one who lived it all, Anjani, your life is in your own hands."

Oman said flatly to me.

"Oman, please leave me a message for you, tell me, I'm fine, and don't cry, I still love and will always look after her."

I told Oman about my hopes for mama.

"Actually I also have to apologize, because I don't want to come to your house, I can't bear to see your mama who is always crying thinking about you! but you only stay and have fun with your boyfriend!"

Oman said while glancing at Antoni. The tone of his words teased me and Antoni.

"Oman ...! I don't play! If you are not Anjani's friend! I have punched you in the face right now! Don't speak so carelessly! Understood !!"

With a high note Antoni replies the Oman words.

"Antoni .. you don't be arrogant! You only knew Anjani yesterday afternoon! I know Anjani first than you! I know her from her snot, and also her family, all I know the ins and outs of! I say this, I don't want him wrong direction ... you understand what I mean right? "

Oman was even more determined to reply Antoni.

Unable to endure all this, I think before something happens in this place, I will stand up and leave them ...

I feel hate towards them, why do they think like that means they are right.

"Anjani ... Anjani ....."

Antoni chased after me and pulled my hand.

"Anjani ... wait for me! I mean your feelings, calm down ... don't run anymore, just walk slowly ...

"Anjani ...." Antoni embraced my body, made me stop then he said ... soft in my ears ..

"Anjani, if you want tonight we see your mom and dad ok! ... I will take you there"

The words that come out of Antoni's mouth, make my heart comfortable and my frustration disappears.

"Anjani ..! I'm sorry if I'm wrong, but honestly that's all that I really want to say to you"

"Antoni ...! I hope you take good care of Antoni ... because for me he is someone I love too ..!

With gasps Oman could finally catch up with us. he said to me and he left a message for Antoni to keep myself always.

"Oman ... you know my struggle to get Anjani, the turn to get me is even miserable ..."

With a smile and Antoni's soft hand beating on Oman's shoulder, Antoni told Oman

"Ok ... now it's late .. I will return first ... I want it at night ..." Oman also said goodbye to us.

"Ok ... live your heart on the road ..." I said to Oman

"Bro. Thank you for accompanying us to chat," Antoni said to Oman

Now stay me and Antoni who stands on this side of the road.

Because the time is 6 o'clock in the afternoon, we can't go back to school again to pick up Antoni's motorcycle that was deposited at the school earlier,

"Anjani ... do you still want to go to the mall?"

Antoni asked me.

"It's up to you ... but your motorcycle can't be taken now ..." I answered Antoni.

"I can tell Mamang Ali to pick him up, or we can just take the GRAB ... what do you think?"

Antoni saw me and told me to make a decision. I can only stare at Antoni's face, If he knows what I want and is in my heart, I want to meet mama, and I miss mom ..

honestly I miss mom ...

I took a deep breath so that the tears did not trickle.

I pray in my heart and I say.

"God ... please take care of my mother and protect her at home ..."

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