17 Kisses From You

My sin ..

It's finished my job to report papa to the police, even though the tears flowing in my cheeks. But these tears are not tears of sadness but tears of pleasure ...

Well .... I am happy to see you suffer, and this is the beginning of the suffering that I have planned, as long as you are still suffering for that long, you have to endure the suffering.

I saw Antoni's face quietly, under the dim light of the street, Antoni's face showed fatigue, but he still tried to always be there for me, there was always beside me, I don't know what I felt in my heart towards Antoni, I felt I really didn't love him, I just loved him, I just liked him respect him and a little love for him. but, if to love him I feel my fear of him.

I do not want to be like mama, who fell because of love. I still want to see and look for what it means to love ... I must learn to love myself.

"Anjani, we stop by the front porch, yeah ... you have to eat, later if you're sick, who will take care of mama later?" Antoni reminded me again to eat immediately, because my intention to go to the POLICE office was finished now.

Antoni's gaze was so calm to see me, and the embrace of his hand which was always on my shoulder, made me comfortable with him.

"Ok, after that, you take me to the hospital again .. I want to take care of Mama in the hospital, you and Oman will return later, tomorrow you must go to school"

I say that to Antoni because I want to be alone, I just want to be with mom right now. and I saw Antoni's face was really tired.

"Anjani, don't say that again, I've told you, if I have to take care of you, and I've asked for permission from my father, and you know ...my father has agreed, so where are you there I will take care of you ... ok dear! "

The answer that came out of Antoni's mouth for a moment made me feel that I was the most special woman, maybe it made me feel the size of my head, or clicked my cheek. I looked into Antoni's eyes who had been staring at me without blinking.

"Antoni, thank you" only those words were able to come out of my mouth. because I don't understand what I have to prove to Antoni, I don't have the strength like him. I feel like a parasite to him.

"Oh yeah, I want to ask Oman, he hasn't eaten yet, so I'll buy him one too."

Antoni without hesitation took his cellphone and immediately called Oman who was looking after mama at the hospital.

"Yeah ... ok ... I bought you a special fried rice using pete for you, wait for me ... don't delay you, then I'll get back to your seat, you have been delayed again .....!"

The Pete Fried Rice was Oman's answer to Antoni, actually I already knew, without Antoni even calling I understood that it was Oman's favorite food and he always ate it if he went anywhere. Oman won't live without Pete's side.

Tonight I feel my head feels very heavy, my mind full and forked, I think of the mother being treated, I think of my father, what am I doing sinful, I think of Antoni, what should I tell him, if I owe too much debt to him.

and I think about myself, what should I do next for my future. I still can't trust Antoni, because I know, we both still enjoy the storyline of our lives.

Right now Antoni can say sweet words and love me, because we are still in the school environment, but, if you later go to college or work, Antoni and I will meet thousands of other women or other men.

Moreover, Antoni will inherit his father's company.

He is will become the idol of so many women,

is it possible that there is still a sense of loyalty, love and love is still there, I do not want to compete with them just to fight over Antoni.

"hiiiih ..... very reluctant" without realizing the words that came out of my mouth made my reverie imagine Antoni.

"Anjani, you are definitely thinking about me, yee," joked Antoni to me. Antoni's handsome face really teases me, I feel very lucky to have it.

"What were you when flattered, hahahahahaha ..."

I laughed off answering Antoni.

For a moment he really managed to make me forget for a moment the feeling of fatigue in my head.

There is laughter and happiness that Antoni made for me. But ... if I remember Daddy ...

I returned in my distrust of Antoni. I could not believe it and I was afraid of falling for the falsehood of the love he gave me.

Antoni is a child who is still in the third grade of a vocational school, but he has very very mature thoughts and attitudes. sometimes I want to ask him whether life taught him so he could be like this.

So that his father himself had trusted him and understood very well what he would do.

At first I thought he was a silly boy and a man spit love like a boy his age. apparently I was fooled by his looks.

The person I saw was not the same as what I felt since I knew him and shared with him. He can be silly, but he can also be serious, he can be good but he can be a villain. whether I'm really lucky or I've been lucky since I know him.

"huuuuuufff" I sighed again if I thought about the endless Antoni.

"Hey Miss Daydreamer! Have you eaten yet ...? Let's go back, poor the Oman don't let him deceive because of hunger ... hahahahahaah" Antoni startled my daydream.

"Oh yeah ...! Come on, I'm done," hurry up and hold Antoni's hand and immediately run to the car in the parking lot in front of the restaurant where we ate earlier. Luckily the restaurant that we stopped earlier was not so far from the hospital. we also up to a time not so long and immediately headed to the ICU room where mama was treated.

"Oman .. what about mom? Are you aware?" I asked Oman directly "

and only the shake of my head from Oman came from the answer.

"Yes, this is it, you eat first, you'll hurt yourself!"

Antoni told Oman to immediately eat his fried rice.

"Thank you ... you just know that I am hungry hahahaha" Oman was without a doubt eating right away.

I do not know what I should repay their kindness, because they really help me when I'm in trouble.

"Oman, do you want me to take you home ...? Do you have to go to school tomorrow?" Antoni asked Oman

"No need, bro ...! I use a motorbike, just take care of Anjani here, sorry for her ... who is there to protect her other than us" Oman's answer was correct and made me feel sad to hear that.

This is all because of you! Papa is the one who made all this mess.Papa never saw mama's sacrifice at all. Papa is too busy with his selfishness.

Daddy's sweet promises to mama all disappear after daddy married mama! That's why I don't trust promises, because promises are to me just words that come out of venomous mouths.

"Come on, you two just go home, rest first, you also have to go to school tomorrow, so I'll just take care of mama here, I also need time to be alone right now" I said to Antoni and Oman

"Anjani, have you forgotten what I said?" Antoni said and approached me who had been standing holding a glass divider, seeing mama who was sleeping there.

"Yes Anjani, don't be like that, I know you are a strong girl but now you can't stay alone" Oman replied to me.

I can only say in a low voice

" Up to you ..."

"Yes already, I'll return first ... tomorrow I will return again, tomorrow I will tell my mom to get me clothes to change you .." Oman told me

"No need Man ... tomorrow I'll let me go home first I also want to see the state of the house" I answered Oman.

"Yes, ... I have to go now " Oman left us both.

My eyes keep on the mother who is lying on her hospital bed, I want to feel like I am seeing you up close, want me to hold your hand and say

"Maa ... I love you mama"

My tears began to drip again I cried and felt a very deep pain.

Antonipun approached me he wiped the tears that fell on my cheek .. he hugged me, his gaze was the same to me, we both saw mama lying there.

Suddenly Antoni said to mama,

"Auntie, I'm Antoni, I will take care of Anjani and love Anjani until I close my eyes, I beg you, Auntie allow it"

I immediately looked at Antoni's face, because I never thought Antoni would say such words to mama. and I'm sure mama will hear that too. God ... why is he doing this, I ask in my heart. when he met papa he too loudly said to papa about his intention to take care of me, and now in front of mama he too said again like that.

"Anjani ... I have never played and will not play, I choose you, not for a moment but for my future" Antoni held my face and said with a face that was so close to mine ... closer and more close and he kissed my lips.

I could not refuse because of emotion and pride in his words, or because I paid my debt to him.

The kiss felt soft and warm on my lips. I know this is my first kiss, but I can't help it ...

because this kiss is given by a man who always fills my day, which makes me feel happy and comfortable to always be with him.

"Anjani, don't be angry, yeah ... I'm doing this because, I really love you," Antoni said and Antoni's hug to me grew louder as if he really didn't want to let me go.

And I will return his hug, actually I want this hug, a hug that makes me feel comfortable and feel that I'm not alone.

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