Chapter 3 My feelings

{♡Dahlia ♡}

Some day I might die from heartache of seeing women flirt with Jackson and I can't even show anyone my jealousy cause every person in this will probably feel pity for me

knowing that my and Jackson's views about

partner and forever is totally different .

I am home from NYC and my friends and family are throwing a welcome party for me

at my parent's holiday home in Forest bay .

But I know my of girls are to try to have a chance with the Hamilton siblings and they don't care that most of them are much older than Julian ( Jackson's younger brother) . I shouldn't care about it cause I'm not Jackson's girlfriend or anything.

Thank f@@k I didn't wrote about it in any of my essay for college applications eight years ago otherwise I wouldn't be able to get into any college on that essay because it would have been such a mess.

I love the new people like Sasha, Jiso and Jenny who became my friends when we were working on modeling projects and talked about many things like pretty privileges , how it's dangerous and as three of them are from kpop industry they also told me about their work and city i. e. Purple city . So I invited them over for my party

cause with my experience in filmography I might try my hand in helping them for their label company rookie group music video direction. Even they also find Jackson really handsome though they have seen so many male kpop idols who are considered worldwide great looking people .

I have thoughts turning about my career,

lifestyle , getting married and having a family

since I turned twenty six this year .

I have been thinking that I should probably seek a therapist for my mental health and my feelings.

I go and have some chat with my elder brother and his wife Grace . When my brother Bennett fell in love I was astonished at his behavior and let me say that I was jealous to see the love they have for each other and how their relationship is going so positively that I want to have the same.

I take Grace away from my brother and go towards garden I also see from corner of my eyes that some woman in red is looking intently in our direction.

Grace is the best sister in law as if she can

read my mind and just stays by my side in a comforting silence.

After some minutes I decided to open a conversation.

" You know Grace you are a God sent in house were everone thinks me staying silent for some time is a crime ."

"It's okay Dahlia I know sometimes you just want to have a silent moment " Grace looked up in sky and said to me.

"You know I need some help Dahlia " She looked a bit nervous.

"Okay tell me what ? "

" Actually I think I am pregnant so I need to do the test to be sure can you get it for me? please "

" Sure" I replied.