6 Chapter 6

I wake up and feel an arm around my waist. I turn around and find that I my whole body is sore. I see Akahiro sleeping next to me, his arm around my waist. My eyes go wide as realization slaps me in the face. 

Did we actually?, O no, no. 

I sit up with some difficulty.

Did I really just let him? He was my first. Why? 

Tears slowly stream down my face. I feel a shift beside me. Akahiro opens his eyes and sits up. He looks at me with concern. I turn away from him. I try to get out of the bed but he reaches for my arm and holds me in place. He then scoots closer to me. He wraps his arms around me, and holds me tight. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't think it was your first."

My tears become more intense. He just holds me as tight as he can. 

"I, I"

He shakes his head. 

"Shhh, don't say anything."

After sometime my tears stop. He continues to hold me. 

"I'm ok now."

He loosens his grip but doesn't fully let go. He looks at my eyes, his look is gentle as if it were a soft fall breeze. I give him a slight smile. He caresses my cheek before placing a soft kiss on it. 

"Why didn't you stop me? Or at least told me that it was your first. I would have made it special."

I shake my head. 

"It was great the way it was."

He looks at me with furrowed eyebrows.

"Don't you regret it?"

I look him in the eyes and shake my head. 

I wish I could tell you that I feel that way. I might be in love with you, if only you weren't in love with my brother. 

"You haven't answered my question, why didn't you stop me? This was your first time, yet you didn't seem hesitant."

I look at him and wonder if I should tell him the truth.

"I felt bad, for what happened with my brother."

He shakes his head.

"That isn't the reason, you don't give someone your virginity because your sibling broke their heart."

I look down, I push him away from me. I jump out of the bed and make a dash for the door. I start to pull it open when a force stops me from behind. Akahiro picks me up and throws me onto the bed. He incages me with his body, his unclothe body. 

"Why?"

I look at his eyes. I reach for his face and pull him down. I lock our lips for a moment.

"Does that answer your question."

He looks at me with wide eyes.

"How long have you felt this way?"

I look around and then look back at him. 

"6 months"

He lets out a slight chuckle. 

"While I was telling you my feelings for your brother you were hiding yours for me. I'm an idiot aren't I?"

I smile as I look at him. I slowly nod my head.

"You are an idiot."

I wrap my arms around his neck and pulled him into a hug. 

"Let's not tell my brother he would kill you."

He chuckles and lightly kissed my shoulder in agreement. 

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