7 Chapter 7: Please

"Doctor! Finally, You're here! He woke up yesterday." My interns came to me.

"Where's the patient?" I asked.

"Still in the ICU. We never moved him like how you said."

"Good. I'll check on him."

Wilson's finally awake... I hope he... I hope my patient is well. Nang makapasok ako sa kwarto ay naabutan kong nag-uusap ang mag-anak pero hindi kasama si Wilson.

Hugo looks so sad again. I can feel the emotion in his eyes. He left the room but he didn't even threw any sight or eyes on me. He just... Left.

"Faye... Wilson's finally awake! Salamat, Hija!" Niyakap ako ni Tita Cora.

"Wilson... How are you feeling?" I asked while checking on the surgery we had on him.

"I-I feel like my head is heavy, Faye."

"You have a big bandage and please... Don't move and talk a lot. Relax and just be calm."

"Y-You did this? Ikaw ang doctor ko?" He asked.

"Yes... I am the neurosurgeon."

"Thank You, Faye. Maraming maraming salamat sa iyo." Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko at pinisil.

"I only did what I had to." Nilayo ko ang kamay ko sa kanya.

"Please take your medications. My interns said you don't want to take it. Well, You have to."

"I want you here with me, Faye."

"I'm here because I'm your doctor."

He didn't answer.

"Excuse me..." Lumabas ako ng kwarto.

Nagulat ako na sinundan ako ng Mama ni Wilson. She looks like she wants to tell me something.

"Faye... I need to talk to you."

"What about it, Ma'am? Let's go to my clinic."

Naglakad kami papunta sa aking clinic. Siniguro ko na kaming dalawa lang ang mag-uusap.

"Faye.. About Wilson. Kailangan ko ang tulong mo."

"Tita... I helped Wilson."

"No not that... He won't take his medicines. Ayaw niya yun inumin dahil wala ka."

"Ano po ang gusto ninyong gawin ko?"

"Please stay with my son. Alam mo kung anong sinabi niya sa akin bago siya naaksidente? Sinabi niya sakin na nagsisisi siya na niloko ka niya. Nagsisisi siya na hindi ka niya pinaglaban. Mahal na mahal ka ng anak ko, Faye."

"P-Pero hindi ko na po siya mahal."

"But at least, Please just stay with him. Be with him. Make him feel you love him." Hinigpitan niya ang hawak sa kamay.

"Hindi ko po kayang manloko ng iba."

"I will tell him about it just please help me! Hindi ko kayang mawalan ng anak."

"P-Pero may mahal na po akong iba."

"S-Sino? Kalimutan mo muna siya at si Wilson ang tulungan mo. Makakaya ba ng konsensya mo na mawala si Wilson dahil sa pagmamahal niya sayo?"

"Pag-iisipan ko po..."

Iniwan ko si Tita Cora at lumabas muna ako at nagpa-hangin. Umakyat ako sa rooftop ng hospital. Hindi naman ganoong ka-init dahil papalubog na ang araw.

"You want fresh breath of air too?" Isang baritonong boses ang narinig ko.

"Hugo? Bakit nandito ka?"

"Same reason that you need air." He went beside me.

"Can I talk about something?"

"Go on, Faye."

Faye? He calls me baby... But now he didn't? Alam ko wala kaming relasyon but what did really happen?

"Your mother... She wants me to be with Wilson."

"Then do it..."

"What? Hahayaan mo din akong gawin iyon? Ayokong lokohin ang kapatid mo!"

"Hindi mo siya lolokohin... You will just be with him to support him!"

"Pero lolokohin ko ang sarili ko! Ayokong sumama sa taong hindi ko naman mahal!"

"Don't be selfish, Faye!" He sighed.

"I'm not being selfish. For once in my life, I want to make a decision that is not only for what is best for me. Gusto kong gumawa ng desisyon na makapag-papasaya sa akin. I want to be free with the man I love."

"Even if the man who loves you so much can hurt so bad? Kaya mong tiisin yun?!" He shouted but it was not loud.

"Pumayag man ako o hindi ay may masasaktan talaga! It is either I hurt him with truth or hurt him with a lie! And believe me, I don't ever want to fool anyone. Bakit ba ang dali niyong ipamigay ako?" Tinulak ko si Hugo at tinalikuran ko siya.

Hindi ko mapigilan ang luha na rumaragasa sa mga mata ko. Ang sakit. Hindi pa man niya alam na mahal ko siya ay sinaktan na niya ako.

"Faye... I'm sorry." Hinabol niya ako at hinarap sa kanya.

"Don't say sorry if you think na ikaw ang naka-sakit sa akin. Alam mo ba kung sino ang mahal ko? Alam mo ba kung gaano ko kayang ipaglaban ang mahal ko? I am willing to do all of that for you. Oo, Mahal kita. Ikaw lang ang lalaking nagpadama sa akin ng ganoon. Pero ngayon pa lang na wala tayong relasyon ay hindi mo magawang pigilan ako at ipaglaban ako. You chose to give me away like I am nothing. Wala ka rin pinagkaiba sa magulang ko."

"No, Faye. Please listen to me, Baby." May pagsusumamo sa kanyang boses lalo na sa kanyang mata.

"Don't. Stop it, Hugo. If you cannot fight for me, leave me now. Hindi ko kailangan ng lalaking duwag. Please leave me if you don't want me to be in your life. Just please, Hugo."