He need help

I'm such an idiot.

"I'm sorry" I said, but all he was doing is shaking. I didn't know what to do because after I screamed at him and said sorry it got silent. All I can hear is Midoriya's tears. I wanted to help him but I didn't know how, so I hugged him. Midoriya looked at me and said "Can We stay like this until tomorrow." I was surprised because he stopped crying so I continued hugging him for a while. I was still confused why he had blood on his hands. "What about your hands," I said. I should've said that because he started crying again and the hug won't help him stop. So I did something without even thinking about it...I kissed him. For some reason he kissed back, his lips were so soft and warm I couldn't stop. He pinned me down on the bed slowly kissing me. I wanted to do it, I wanted to do the thing with him so I put my hand on his chest, but then we heard a knock on the door. Midoriya got scared and hide under the bed. I opened the door and I saw Kirishima and Bakugo. "Hey Todoroki! Do you know where's Midoriya is, we saw him running away crying 10 minutes ago and were asking everyone if they seen him." It was kinda weird because Bakugo was worrying about him as well. "Yeah I do", I didn't want to lie because maybe they can help me with Midoriya. I looked under the bed and Midoriya came out. Bakugo ran to him and hugged him, and in that moment I felt angry...I was jealous.