1 the good things and the bad things.

so what I'm trying to say is that I think our hearts are bound to be together but I know that there's more to life than love and I wish there wasn't because I wish that I could be with my boyfriend forever I wish that we could get married I wish that everything what just happened but I know that everything happening at once would be a hassle it be hard and my mom probably wouldn't pay for all the stuff for the wedding if we even had one and I don't even know if he would propose but all I know is that me Courtney I am in love and I I will never let anything get in the way of love or at least that's what I thought so I'm turning 18 soon so I'm going to have to get a job and I won't be able to hang out with my boyfriend as much as normal and it's going to be kind of difficult to find time for those other things that I need with a job in my boyfriend in my friends and my mom is going to be so hard that my boyfriend will also have to get a job so my boyfriend will be gone most of the time unless we get the same job in do the same thing in our job but that's very unlikely I mean we have very different skills import probably not going to get the same job at the same place but there's that small chance and I hope that we do cuz that'd be amazing that I'd have time for everything but there's also grocery shopping I'd have to work a lot for the money for those groceries and a lot of money for beds and sheets and blankets and comforters and a house and rented all of this stuff it's going to be so hard and I wish that it wouldn't but that's it's how life is life is hard and I know I shouldn't be making such a big fuss me and my boyfriend are having a good time so why am I so upset hey. Where love we're happy we have a chance of getting the same job together it's going to be great that's probably what you're saying but I'm the type of person that thinks about the good things and then when there's a whole bunch of bad things engulfing me I think about all of those things and think about why was I spending all my time thinking about the little good things I know it's a good thing to think about those good things but you always have to think about the bad things every once awhile because if you never think about them if you never look into the if you never try to make the good they're all going to come together and make a huge problem with your family go for your life you won't have any time for anything will be so hard but I am working through that I'm getting a part-time job and I might get her a whole job like a normal job you work at a factory at least that's what I'm hoping cuz if I don't we might not be able to pay for the rent we not might not be able to buy a house it just be really hard but I don't like boyfriends working a lot so I have to work a lot to try to catch up with him we got to be at least kind of the same because if my boyfriend's doing all the work he'll think I'm lazy and we might break up that'd be horrible thinking that our hearts were supposed to be together like they were made together if it getting broken up that would be horrible I would go through depression but I should be thinking about that right now I should be thinking about those good things like before but also focusing on the bad things so if you were in my situation what would you do