20 chapter 19

Matthew's POV

Once my hungry tummy was fully satisfied with burger small burp scaped from my mouth. I shipped on my whiskey.

I looked in the direction of where the blonde girl was sitting and raised my glass to her, she did the same. Then I finished the rest of the whiskey at one go still looking at her. I wanted to buy her a drink. I signalled her to finish her drink as well.

As if understanding what I wanted her to do, she finished all of her drink at one go as well. I pointed her towards the bar where the drinks was served.

Then I said to David, " Can you please move. let me go and buy that girl a drink. I will also ask her to join us. The girl sitting next to her is gorgeous as well, if you are interested, I dashed Jack."

"Let's see, I do not just fuck anyone. She looks good but we need to connect at some level. If we do connect then why not", Jack stated looking in the direction of the girl.

Do you guys want me to buy anything for you as well."

"Yaa sure I would love another round of this whiskey please," said Jack.

"Same for me as well," added David.

Usually I would look for someone with whom I could connect at some level. But since I saw Ria, I haven't been able to connect myself with anyone else. Every girls I tried picking up these last few weeks, I start comparing them with Ria and at the end I went home alone to satisfy myself with my hand.

But not tonight. She is with someone else who looks handsome and rich enough as he was driving Ranger Rover. I just want her to be happy. And she looked really happy seeing him.

I don't think she has ever been that happy seeing me. But fuck the thought of that guy putting his hands around my Imp is already unbearable for me.

"Let's not focus on what I can't have, let's focus on this beautiful blonde who looks willing to be in my company," I tried reassuring myself as I made my way towards the bar.

The blonde girl and me we both reached there almost at the same time.

"Hi", I said with the smile.",

"Hello", she replied looking directly in my eyes.

"You looking gorgeous in that dress of yours", leaning closer I wishpered in her ear trying to give her a signal of what I wanted from her tonight.

"You are looking dashing as well", she kissed me on my chick lingering her lips there for longer then necessary.

As she was about to pull back, I hold both her arms and pulled her closer. Her kiss was a go singnal for me. I lowered my lips into her and kissed her.

As I was kissing her there was no feeling, no arousal nothing. I felt absolutely nothing. I broke our kiss asked her, " what would you like for a drink".

She looked flustered, that means she was aroused by our kiss but why not me. My dick remained as it was. "Your cum would be better but I will settle with tuqilla sunrise for now", she said it in my ear.

If it was Ria who was saying that to me or if it was some other time, I would be already leaving this place to fulfil her wish but with this blonde I didn't feel ready yet.

So I turned to the bartenders and order drinks for all four of us.

Then I turn to look at the blonde girl "why don't you guys join us. There is enough space for all three of you".

"I have to ask my friends. Just give me a moment I will back in no time," saying that she ran towards her friends without giving me time to say anything else.

I looked towards my friend. Both of them show their thumbs up. Obviously, they must have witnessed what happened between that blonde girl and me but what they couldn't witness was how I felt nothing, how my dick didn't even buzz.

But they do not need to know that, so I did the same with my hand and one closed eyes.

All 4 drinks were ready but I was in the dilemma on how am I gonna take all 4 drinks at the same time. I was trying to adjust drinks on my hands somehow the blonde girl came to my side, " let me help you with this".

She carried her tuqilla sunrise and another glass of whiskey and I carried the rest. As we reached our table, the two other girls were already sitting opposite to David and Jack.

David moved in the middle so that I can adjust on the side. I dropped the two glass on the table carefully passing both to David and Jack and took the one from Blondie for myself. I lean closer to her and said, " It is gonna test better then the rest as you touched it". I just wanted to flattered her. Her smile told me that I succeeded.

The table was long enough, so instead of heading towards my spot, I settled myself next to the blonde. Both of my friends raised their brows to that but I just ignore them.

Both of them have been worried about me in this last month because I have not been myself. Seeing me trying to make an effort towards a girl is something I don't think they have expected. I know they are happy for me.

I also know that the feeling for my Imp is not gonna disappear overnight. But there is no harm in trying. As I am trying not to bring any memory of her in my head, I flushed down my throat with the alcohol. I am not the quick drinker but today I need it.

I need it to forget Imp, I need it to move on, I need it to remain sane also I need it to seated where rather then where I want to be.

Everyone started chatting with each other while I was mostly silent on my own thoughts trying to reason myself that whatever I am doing is the right thing.

I then realised I haven't even asked the name of the blondie.

"I know it is little late, but what is your name?"

The girl laughed loudly and said, "Katherine, but u can call me Kat. Everyone calls me Kat. But I already figure out your name Matt" coming closer to my ear putting one of her hand on my thigh.

"Kat it is then", sipping my drink looking in her direction While her hands rubbing my up and down my inner thigh. My dick responnd to that. may be that is what I need I thought to myself and hold her hand so that she wouldn't stop her activity.

We started having a proper chat. I figure out that she is into fashion industry. Her clothes should have helped me guess. She looked like someone who can carry herself no matter what.

She was really nice person to talk to. Our conversation were flowing easily and for the first time in a while I started to enjoy someone's company.

Drinks keep coming to my table, as I made no more effort to stand up and get it myself, either by David or Jack. Perk of having best friends they would know you like no other people.

I didn't realise that it was pass midnight already. Bar doesn't close until 4am on the Friday night so it was like just the start of the night. It was more crowded then before with lots of people on the dance floor.

I turned to look at my friends whom I was ignoring for a while now. Jack was already on the dance floor with that other friend of Kat. David was sitting with "Maddy" I said aloud in surprise.

"When did that happened" I thought to myself.

"Hi Matt, all my friends are here as well. We went for dinner ans came back here not long ago. How have you been?" Asked Maddy with the smile plastered on her face while held closer by David.

"Not bad. By the way, she is Katherine".

"Hi Katherine," Maddy gave polite smile.

"Hi Maddy. You can call me Kat".

"Let's go to the dance floor. Jack seems energetic there with his flawless moves", I said getting up helping Kat to stand up by giving my hand.

All four of us made our way to dance floor and started dancing. David and Maddy moved further from where we were for the privacy which was good for us as well.

Kat came closer to me and tugged my body into a hug as we sway along the music. I wrapped along her body as well. We started dancing sensually. I closed my body to feel her.

But as I closed my eyes instead of kat it was my little imp who came to my vision. As always her thoughts made my dick hard and my breathing laboured. I reached her and kissed her hungrily like there was no tomorrow. I only stopped to breath every now and then. My body holding her tightly not letting her move while I rubbed myself into her.

"Wow, are you going to take me here or what Mr", Kat laboured voice brought me back to present.

As I opened my eyes not seeing who I wanted to see infront of me, my mood suddenly changed. Felt like all the affect of alcohol gone from my body. I felt suden chill ran through my body. I cursed inwardly. I felt angry, my anger visible in my eyes. Kat keep staring at me with surprise.

Not in the mood to explain anything to her I said, " I am sorry Kat. You are a really nice person. But I can't do this" pulling my hair.

"What! what are you taking about. I thought we were going all right", she added with the frown.

I tried to remain as calm as I could. " I thought we were too but see, I am in love with this girl and she can't be mine". Did I say I loved her I thought to myself, never mind. "She has a boyfriend and I just found out today. So I came here tonight to find someone to spend my night with".

Kat keep glaring at without saying anything for a while and then slapped me and left without saying anything.

I didn't wanted to be there anymore. So I left without saying anything to my friends. I send a text message to David saying I am heading home.

As I left the pub people were still everywhere in the street. All drunk some with friends some with partners in eachothers arms not caring about who is watching them.

As I keep walking towards my home whatever I said to Kat keep ringing on my Head. Fuck I am doomed. I am in love with her. No wonder that sexy beautiful blonde wearing something so revealing, sitting next to me did nothing to my dick.