4 Maybe One Day

As I turn to slowly start to walk away, My heart starts to hurt. It almost is feels like when I told my parents that I was leaving for America. The feeling of regret, but also love. I never thought that I would feel this way again towards him. Even now I need to stop feeling this way towarda him. I just have to remember what happen the last time my emotions can to the surface. That'll help.

"My feelings for Jin have always been complicated and meesy. At one point I didn't even know if I had true feelings for him or if my mind was playing tricks on me. My feelings turned me into a joke in the eyes on many the last time. I guess that just hasn't changed, at least not in the eyes of Soel. "lOh Soel. Maybe one day i won't have to deal with you. Maybe one day, I won't have to remeber you making me look like a joke in front of the most important people. Finally one day, You'll realize that I've always been better than your artificial self. Yet, that's only one day." I write while sitting on a park bench not to far away from the store.

I've always written in my little brown leather book. It made me feel safe even in a world that might crumble. It always made me feel like my word would matter to a person. So I always wrote in my little brown leather book.

Somedays I would write elaborate stories of my future and how I would be famous, others I wrote how my life has changed and I didn't need the over fantasized love. Then one day I wrote about how much I missed my crazy town, and my parents. The little brown leather book, the only place I'll be able to hold my words.

Who knows maybe one day I'll finally say what I've always written. I won't cover myself with happiness when I'm breaking. yeah! That'll be my one day. Yet today was not my day.

I finally can focus on my interview tomorrow. I just haven't decided in I want to audition for a role in the new movie coming out, or become their legal adviser. I already told dad I would become one. Might as well, Acting can wait till I'm ready. Just like it did 10 years ago.