7 5

*So automatically, this book is so pleasing to my brain that even I can not stop writing it*

Vanilla pov

I freeze, as the warm tongues slides on my cheeks, before he pulls away and cold air reminds me that someone had just licked me.

Like I had just been slapped into a reality that I had not wanted to face.

"For heavens sake, Coco, do you want to give that girl a heart attack?"

The boy is now on his seat, grumbling but staring at me with wonder in his eyes before he notices what I'm grabbing to and moves back.

He stands slowly, like he's.. stupefied and moves to the other male that has a bored look on his face, sitting on his body and burying his face in his neck.

The male in question had not even acted surprised at the intervention, he didn't even acknowledge, he just kept eating his food and staring straight at whatever he was staring at.....

I have scared him, haven't I?

What's wrong with me?

I am about to grab unto my body, but the other male holds my hand, offering a small smile as he says "You can grab unto this instead"

He brings out a red ball.

It's small, like a marble, and glistening under all the lights as he says "Mistress gives us the balls to squeeze when we feel.... Like... Harming ourselves or we don't feel..... Okay.... You can have mine, I feel better and I don't.... I don't harm, I just can't.... Eat properly without throwing up, is all"

I stare at him, I want to tell him that I'm fine, that I don't want the ball.

But words are not forming.

His face suddenly has the crestfallen look, and he is about to retreat it before I feel my hands leave the crucifix that I was holding that dangled on my neck and snatching up the ball, clinging it to my chest.

He looks surprised, at first, like he cannot believe I actually took it, before he gives me a smile, now looking at his plate.

He's blushing....

What did I do?

Did I embarrass him?

You could have just stayed where you were, there was no need for you to try and infect this people with your weirdn....

"Vanilla"

My head turns so quickly that I realize a second later that my name is Vanessa but I don't even tell her.

She gives me a small smile instead "Chocolate didn't mean to scare you"

I stare at her then at the bowl of pudding before I hear her laugh and say "No, no, not the food darling, the boy who was just next to you. He's quite touchy and physical... And he hasn't been around women without them touching him appropriately. I hope you understand he meant no harm"

Chocolate....

I look up at the male, as he is not still buried in the males neck, just staring at me, his eyes all round and puppy like.

His eyes are telling me one thing.

I am so sorry.

But I.... I don't feel mad....

I don't even know why I had reacted that way.

I want to say those words, that it's okay, that it's fine, but I can't....

I feel that I might say something, and get misunderstood, again, because no one understands me....

There never...

I feel the small ball in my hand give a small squeal and I realize ultimately that I had been squeezing.

The other male that gave me the ball gave me a small smile, telling me with his eyes that it was okay to squeeze me, and no one would judge.

I look up at Chocolate again, he is still staring at me, hoping I can redeem him and I look back at the bowl of pudding.

I scoop it, still looking at the male.

He's no more leaning on the other one, but leaning forward, looking at me.

I take it into my mouth, letting my tongue roll around it before I lick my lips...

And smile.

His face lights up immediately as he suddenly runs off the males body, rushing up to me and saying "Is it nice? It's nice isn't it?"

I nod.

He squeals, turning to the other one at my side "See, Caramel, she likes it!"

Caramel blushes more, still not looking up at he takes another fork into his mouth as Chocolate says "He makes it for me every Sunday but you can have it, I don't mind"

I want to say thank you, but....

Your voice is the worst thing in the world!

Chocolate suddenly sits up "Hold on"

He jolts out of his sit as the other woman sighs, rushing off as she shakes her head before he comes back with a cracker and sits next to me "Eat"

His eyes are wide with curiosity, like he is wondering what I can do with it.

I don't understand what he expects me to do with it but I take it anyway, and nibble on it.

He sighs, now resting on his hands "Like a mouse"

Huh?

"Chocolate, I think you should find something else to eat" The other woman says "Because no one is leaving the table without a full stomach" Then she faces me "Except you, Vanilla"

Why does she sound like she's breathing my name?

I hear Chocolate grumble, but he does not argue and moves back, this time sitting on his seat.

*

The dinner ends and Caramel takes my now empty plate, passing me a smile, before Chocolate and the other one walk off.

The woman walks to me, a smile on her face as she brings out her hand "Let me escort you to your room"

I take her hand, because I see no reason to fight.

I should be grateful.

She wants me.

Until you mess up, that's why you don't have a home.

I look down, as she raises me up, but she does not say anything about it.

Rather, she pulls me along, up the array of stairs, as my other hand feels the material of the stairs.

Smooth....

When we reach the hall, she points to five rooms that all lay in lines after each other "This are our rooms. Mine is first, and is the biggest, you can come sleep there whenever you're not comfortable. The next is Strawberry's, Cream's, Chocolates and Caramel's, they sleep in my room but sometimes spend their time in theirs. This is yours"

She opens a door "This is yours"

I think not.

The walls are light yellow, with a king sized bed and two comforters and a teddy too.

A big one, to be honest.

Very big.

Then a table, a vanity mirror, a dressing desk, a wardrobe...

All light yellow...

The lady seems to laugh nervously "Please, you'd have to excuse my vanity. I make sure that they all have the same colour of rooms as their names and they use the same soaps, creams and toothpaste, but rest assured that your dressing colour is up to you, I just love the smell.... I hope it is not too much if I ask that of you"

To shocked to say anything, I just shake my head.

She brightens up immediately "Thank you. I think that would be all, if you need anything, I am not too far away"

Then she rests a hand on my shoulder "And I mean it. I am here for you to talk to, and though I know it might be hard for you to talk now, I know you would feel comfortable very soon, but till then...."

She leaves a small kiss on my forehead "Welcome home once again Vanilla"