37 Planning Ahead Because I Made Bad Life Decisions

(Morgan Pov)

My heart to heart with Hassar was about 2 weeks ago, I thought he would ask me a lot more questions. He definitely has more questions for me, but he isn't pushing the issue. He kept to his word and is supporting the decision I have made to leave the tribe.

He has been telling me of the places he had visited in the past and is giving me traveling advice. Things like how much I should charge for my services and what type of work I should look out for. It's good to know how much I am actually worth and how much I can charge for my services.

Honestly hearing him talk about those places has only made me more excited to explore this world. I haven't been able to do much exploring, I have been limited to the tribe's migratory routes. I don't mind it at all, I like living and having safety in numbers is very reassuring.

That just means we move around in a specific region of Sacae and we visit places within that region. We don't have a set path we follow, so there is a lot of room for flexibility. But the point is we rarely stray away from this region and the places I could explore have been limited.

I should probably steal a map or something similar the next time I'm in town. The last time I wandered around with no idea of where I was heading, things worked out for me in the end. But, I only remember about 20% of what happened to me out there.

I can't even use magic to try and recover that missing gap in memory. It's gone and there is nothing I can do about it. All I know is that at some point I gained access to a powerful ability and as a result, most of my memories are gone.

From there, I met someone who took me in, and the rest is history. I can only speculate and let paranoia fill in the more meticulous details. I think it's better not to think about it so much and preserve what's left of my sanity.

Not sure what will happen to me out there, but I at least don't want to be lost. Now that I think about it, I don't think I have ever seen a map of the continent. I just know the rough area of where each country is located and a bit about their history. Oh well, I can take care of that later.

For now, I should focus on taking care of the business I have left here. After revealing I was a doctor of sorts, I got some parchment to write down some important information. Things like how to perform a proper diagnosis and how to treat the disease.

Right now I'm writing down instructions on how to create various medicines, I'm trying to be as detailed as possible. I hope they can read my handwriting, it would suck if they accidentally created a poison and administer said poison to a patient. All because of my trash penmanship.

I should probably ask everyone if they can read what I wrote down later. What else could I write down for them? I have a lot of useful ideas in my mind, but some of them are hard to explain. Should I explain to them the art of the deal? Or should I explain how to catch a con man?

-------------------A Few Hours Later

I ran out of ink, so that concludes what I want to write down for today. I need to make some more ink in between chores. I wrote down a lot of good stuff, now I just need feedback on the instructions. I don't want anyone to die while I am gone, I can't handle that guilt.

I should have trained someone to fill in my role as a doctor, but because no one got sick I never thought about doing that. It's too late now, but at the very least I can teach someone how to properly make the medicines. That should take care of the poison problem for now.

Now I just have one question left. I wonder who would be the best person to teach? The adults are out of the question, they already have set roles and don't have enough time to spare. I need to talk to Hassar, see who is available, and can dedicate a considerable amount of time to learn.

Then again, he is the chief and he would be the person who knows most about the capabilities of everyone in the tribe. He could simply choose the people he thinks would be the best for the job and delegate their duties to other people.

I'm also okay with that, I just don't want to derail the plans of the tribe again. According to Hassar, they have been planning on doing something that requires the tribe to split off into two groups. My departure is now pushing that plan ahead of time. I don't know how, but I did.

I have no clue what the plan is, but I'll find out when the time comes. I shouldn't let my mind wander off so much, I should focus on my immediate goal. Teaching someone how to be a passable doctor, I should probably come up with a lesson plan of sorts.

It doesn't matter how well I understand a topic or how good I am at communicating with people, I will always be a shit teacher. I'm a very pragmatic person, so I don't know how to make an engaging lesson. I just want to spit out the facts and answer any questions that may come up.

Then again I don't want anyone to die because I didn't try hard enough to be a good teacher. Fuck it, I'll step out of my comfort zone. I'll stop being a bitch and try harder. How do I make learning fun? In my opinion, learning isn't supposed to be fun.

It's supposed to be filled with pain and some mental anguish. That makes a lesson more memorable and a great lesson is one you can always remember. Even if you don't understand it at the moment, you can always look back into your memory until you do.

Others don't agree with my idea of learning. Unfortunately, I have to respect that and take a much gentler approach. I know that not everyone has the same mental or physical fortitude as me. I was already what some people call an intense and crazy bastard. It's not wrong.

Dark magic just pushed that into borderline insanity. Not going to lie, this new mindset has got so many good results for me. It was an insane move, but I taught myself a new branch of magic. A sane man would have got someone to guide them, I experimented until things worked out.

I am living proof of the saying, whatever doesn't kill you just makes you stronger. I should have died messing around with magic, but I didn't and I literally got stronger. There are many more examples of this in this current life, not sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing.

But I digress, not everyone can be like me or is willing to do the same things as me. What necessarily worked for me won't always work for others. I have to think of some teaching styles, but it all depends on what type of student I'm working with. Oh, the things I do for love.

---------------The Next Day

"I have a great idea, but I need your help chief."

"Did you write down the medicine recipes?"

"I finished writing all of the recipes down and I wrote down a guide on how to properly diagnose a patient. I can improve the guide, but that won't solve the issues I thought of. The frustrating part of diagnosing a patient is how similar two different illnesses can be.

The wrong medicine could be given to the sick person and that medicine can cause harm instead of healing. Then there is the medicine-making process itself, if a person makes a mistake it can be fatal. There is a fine line between making poison and making medicine."

"You said you had a great idea. Does that mean you thought of a way to take care of the problem?"

"Kind of, it's more of a way to deal with the problem. The best I can do is teach someone the proper way to make medicines. Teach them how to identify some illnesses properly or what to do when they don't know.

They won't be full-fledged doctors anytime soon, but it's better than nothing. I am not going to lie to you. Most of what I want to teach them will be hard to understand, and there are things they can only learn through experiencing it for themselves."

"That's better than nothing. What can I do to help?"

"To do something like this, we need to dedicate a lot of time to this plan. That's why I need to know who is available and who would be the best person for this job. You would be the one who knows the most about what jobs each person is doing, and what time they have to spare.

If no one is free then we have to reorganize everyone's tasks. There are no downsides to just having someone who can perform some of the duties of a doctor. It would be great if they don't have to use this knowledge, but having it will be a great boon for the tribe while I am gone."

"I see what you mean. A lot of us have duties we can't step away from and what you want to teach isn't simple. Depending on the person it might take a long or short amount of time to master even the basics. This is tricky, but I think I might know the right people for the job.

Is there anyone you have in mind or do you want me to choose somebody?"

"You're the one in charge, I just want to get started as soon as I can. I need as much time as we can spare. Ideally I want 2 people, one man and one woman. I'm fine with just one person, but if we can't I understand."

"Why?"

"How do I say this? Well, you know that the bodies of men and women are different. Some problems might be harder to talk about. Sometimes the problem is very personal and the person might not be comfortable talking about it.

I want them to offer them the choice, to have them choose whoever makes them feel more comfortable. The last thing I want is for someone not to get the help they need, just because they are not comfortable sharing. Do you understand what I'm trying to say?"

"I do. I'll see what I can do for you. Anything else?"

"Nothing else comes to mind. I'll get back to work now, I still have some left."

"I'll tell you who I chose when I see you in the yurt tonight. You don't have to finish everything today, you can take your time doing things."

"You don't have to worry, I have everything under control."

"Just don't overdo it, that's all I ask."